S.A.Y What You Want

[A] : No updates?

2010-04-06T22:50:00.004+08:00

Well, how long has it been since the last post?

I was looking for some pics that i happened to be looking through from the very beginning of the blog till the previous post.

I have to admit, when re-reading those old posts, i realised my older posts were when my english was bad[some are when i made them look like i have bad engrish] XD now, it's getting better but not yet perfect. Next thing i realised is those old posts, i mentioned that i will update with editted photos etc but till now i never update them...my bad...i forgot.

I THINK there will be time i'll re-read the blog again from very beginning and update what i can especially the pics. i cant promise anything, cos that's gonna be a lot of work from searching through lots of photos to editting them. And the lazy me is not the very good with time

management.

happy 2010!!!

[siewcheng's last visit in 2009...hope you will come back soon]

As for now, i cant update anything yet...so is YSC...worst is Shel who wont update this blog. Many things happened since new year 2010. Cant guarantee this but there will be updates after 3 months. Signing off~

Losing

2009-09-04T06:58:00.004+08:00

This blog is almost dead... but it will not die. The authors are all busy with different stuff each has to do. Yeo must be busy with her assignments and her life. Just keep fighting there Yeo, life is hard indeed. Shel and I are doing fine, besides the fact that Shel keeps whining and demotivating herself etc. Dont worry bout your abandoned daddy and mummy here...

Anyway, on 23rd August 2009, Sheiela turns 19. Wish you be happy and stop whining. I still dont know what to get you...hmm ironic isnt it? How long has it been since we know each other... I'll get you something when I figure out what it is.

Just a random pic, the most seen scene by me ... since Yeo isnt here, this scene has extinct.

A-level is coming very soon... i dont really know what to say, i dont even know whether im ready for it or not @_@" but one thing for sure, i am gonna watch Wild Bunny after my super ultra mega big exams.

Our AS results arent that bad... even though i got 'e' for my ASL. Im really not good in my english; im more fond with numbers. My phy and chem are 'a' and 'c' respectively, and as for Shel, she got 'b c d d' for history, socio, eng lit and EAS respectively.

Actually, at this very moment, im starring blankly at the screen. Im trying to remember back what my memory just forgets about what i want to say. My memory is just getting worse, i wonder if my IQ also worsens. I just hope it doesnt affect how well im gonna do in my exams.

Seriously, i cant think of what i want to say. My memory just keep forgetting things.
So I'll stop here. If i remember what i want to say or anything else i want to talk bout, i'll try to blog it here. Emphasising on the word "try" cos i know it'll be after few months till my next post.

Im gonna shut this computer so that i wont get distracted by 2PM XD... and get to my studies.

Something not related:
The title for my post is "losing"... i want to say many things bout that specific word... till my memory erased it. Aih~ i'll get back to that once i remember what i want to say bout losing.

Wipee

2009-07-04T01:39:00.002+08:00

I Lost and Gained other happiness. These few days class wasn't great, I skipped class alot of times, I became a loner in class again. I went to sleeping mode in important moments in class, I am wasting money on lecturers which I am afraid to ask questions. I got alot of assignments piling up which I havent even have the mood to touch it. I got into alot of troubles with socializing which all along I am good with it but in the end knowledge on getting closer to people scares me, I started to cut every ties around me who wanted to get closer.

Well that was part of my Unhappy moments in my life these days but now I am happy that I dun need to be a horse and bull to serve Jackson anymore, it wasnt his fault that I wanted to become his slave coz he helped me alot so I made used of myself to become some tool that was useful for him, I know its dumb but I was happy that way to repay the debt. And now I am relief with the ties cut but I had to face the consequences, that is live without frens in class, live in a cold way to satisfy what he wanted me to be to cut ties with him. Anyways I for one who doesnt care fer my class anymore, more than abonding my socializing chances fer a solitude life which I think it will be simpler that way.

The other thing which is happening now is: I've discovered that Panda didnt like the girl who I thought it was. He liked someone that he couldnt tell me, well I asked him at a restaurant one day about " Issit that u like that girl" and he answered in a way that I didnt suspect that it was a lie that was a "No" from him and he even explained it. Later that he wanted to come to my house for some discussion coz he was bored at home but in the end he didnt even talk. I was the one who kept talking. There was times when He wanted to say something already but he gave up on it while staring at me. My situation at that time was thinking that it was impossible that the girl he liked wouldnt be me and now I am still thinking that so I dared to look at him eye to eye. So he stared back in a moment of anticipation but later he looked away.

This made me really pissed...T__T who the fuck is the girl he like anyway. I asked de issit from his Hometown, he said no. Issit from Pjs and he said no, he answered that she was from other places.....so where!? Who? and Long hair, that was the only clues I got. Aish Sooner or later I will find out! ROAR!

And here are some picccies! XD Nite scene at sunway pyramid

[A]: so long and so short of time

2009-05-09T23:17:00.005+08:00

*EDITTED (24thJune'09)*

It has been [again] long time since my last post...yes, this blog is at its slow pace due to self-busy-ness, with all the upcoming AS exams[for me and shel] and Yeo, if im not mistaken, will be busy with her new semester stuff. [Fighting! Gambatte!]

Yet, it feels so short of time to pass just like that without us realising it.

So start off with my current addiction, because BOF drama is all over, i need new bishies, and hence i introduce the super all cool manly 7 members group, 2PM. L to R: TaecYeon, WooYoung, JunSu, JaeBeom[leader], JunHo, NichKhun and ChanSung

2PM comeback... "Again & again" - [see all the muscles XD im not a perv =w=]

Yes, so my fav member has to be Jaebeom[the dummy leader XD], TeacYeon[mushy guy] and Nickhun[prince of Thailand XD]. Am so gonna watch their Idol Show after my AS exam.

Ok~ so over with 2PM, next on the list...
I will be busy with upcoming AS exam so most probably this blog will be dormant for a while till...maybe the June holiday...or unless Yeo updates with her new found bishie during her next semester.

Just to fill some holes of old news or so, hmm...some of them that i could recall so far,starting with:
18-04-09
me and shel outing, went to D'Anggerek for Macbeth play (more like parody/comedy). Good for shel, her bishie was there...

28-04-09
Shel went to RTB for her debate club, PTEK's english debate club competing in semi-final so so...and again, shel's bishie was there, plus with some other bishie =_="
i realised one thing, SHEL IS A BISHIE MAGNET - there will always be bishie when shel is around XD

04-05-09
Ok, so yeah~ PTEK for the very first trophy is when the debate team won first place on the final.
COngrats!

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So~ today, school[or college - im used to say school] as usual, chem and phy before break, then PS, went to library, but shel dragged me to english dept for free food. Well, more like a mini celebration for the winning debate team, i just being dragged to eat freely XD

In the afternoon, at 1430, arrived at our former secondary school, SM Sayyidina Hasan, celebrating its 15th anniversary. Lots of stuffs were there... well that includes the lots of people of different styles and kinds... =__="

Anyway, i saw KURO-san (aka BLACK)...somehow like YSC would say, he's bald XD [well there's hair, just too short]. Still a bishie to me... but so kesian, didnt get a shoot of him DX

Maroon was there too...so there were two bishies there to me.

I think Kuro-san knows i like him, or so...but hey~ im just a fan of his, since form 2 i guess OwO [waah so loyal ah me XD ] And even since from form 2 i become his fan, i dnt know his name, or anything related to him, and hence he will always become the "black" guy...the mysterious one i mean. Form 5 Physics teacher

Cikgu Zamri

Oh, and note to YSC, VITASOY was there too. *spot the prince of china, Yeo*Note: you might be dead if Vitasoy saw this blog....XD

The long forgotten invention...

*Im lazy to upload many pics... go check my FB if still bother to know... that is, if you do even know who am i... =w=

As for shel, i dont think she has any bishies left at SMSH, all her bishies fly somewhere else XD

Basically, there are lots of changes done to the school; we were just walking down the memory lane to reminisce what we have left at the school. Wished you were there YEO SIEW CHENG, to complete the "3 mooses" [if i dnt have the spelling wrong]

Ok~ am gonna go bed now...

P.s this will be my last post[most probably] till AS exam is over. will be BACK~

Repeating History

2009-04-26T22:41:00.003+08:00

Love the composition of this photo: Shows that how far the distance is between me and panda...TT_TT sadnya.
Mr. Amos aka Panda's fren also known as Anus XD He is consider a bishi!
Im King of the SEA!
Panda and Tung!
Sweat and Tung!
Back from Lang Tengah and took alot of pics of course. Leaving memorable memories with Panda and Jelly + Sweat, at least this people made my day like a living heaven.

We departed at 10pm nite, we went to Asian Cafe to eat our mee goreng Double! >w< ___="!" panda="stick="kayu!" already ="__=")." __=".">____<~! well here's some pics

Making me feel like Im shit

2009-03-30T02:30:00.003+08:00

Wahh these days I growing more and more weak against my love life. Im as what Shel said before, slowly sealing my heart away! Even though I know its hard to face it but still I have to face it.

Well first of all me and 7zai is history, yea one of my failure love objects again and now I have a bigger obstacle to overcome. I have yet fallen fer another guy again....cebet, I wish I didnt but in the end I did. And this time its worst than before, he's a guy who is always blur and you can say that he is pure- hearted, the most important part is he has the same record as me 19th years without a love life. Well so thats the only part that makes me really falling slowly for him but the big climax here is I have a feeling that my fren, roomate is having feelings for him too. That's the worst and bigggest shit happened ever! O____O I do not know how to face her when I know this, I have been thinking wrong things and so forth.

I have guessed this out because she always ignore me when I said his things and name pluz she did some weird things that I haven't seen before. Like when I always take my phone out to snap pictures , she would always stay and look but when we are in front of him she took out her phone and snap pictures. Oh I forgot to tell you, she and him has the same interest, Photography, well yes because of them I lose interest in photographies. I did what I could to suppress my jealousy and my like meter towards him coz She, my roomate was the one who told me that I fell to easily in love and I think she was correct so I suppressed my feelings for him but when I realized that she change quite abit when I even say his name and talk about his matters, she is like"uhh yea" okay. Before when I chatted about the guys I like she would exegerate and talk more about it. That's the place that I think is fishy so I had a quick sneak checkup on her and the truth is still not yet revealed, only guesses.

Today I have quite loop some answers, well it all happen like. When "he"(lets call him panda since he has eyebags that will never go away) said to have dinner together, she was all happy and so, then text message me since I was out at 9/16. Then when I said that ok, she was more happy then ever, more happier then eating with the guys in 9/16. Im really confused with this part but when I said that they were not eating out, she said that panda had already eaten in a sad way.

Hmm anyways I really am in lotza Pain and pain and yea more pain piercing through my heart, but this is making me more and more pissed off since this incident is just like NEKO AND ZY! Phck even more worst than this!

She is cutting my lines somehow when I am talking with someone....so I've to diam. And Im not like her, I don't wanna be like Chilli or norah. I just want a peaceful life with the ones I like! I had no idea What the hell is this world goin! Shit! Phuck.....Damn it why can't it be just like in the past, everything I dont know, everything is blur...

I am now hurting badly....again but lucky this case is not serious since I didnt meet alot with him which Im now suppressing myself, well she is still wanting me to meet up with him even though she knew that I do not wanna meet up with him, phuck! I've no idea now....Die pices of shits!

[A]: YSC is 19 now...

2009-03-08T23:24:00.000+08:00

Yea, so i did manage to upload this simple wally for Yeo Siew Cheng's 19th bday. I finished this wally on friday, the whole friday i spent photoshop-ing and uploaded it today(due to my laziness and my busy-ness), just a simple one, full of KIM BEOM since Yeo likes him currently...(wonder how long she will like him till another bishie pops out XD )

Also, yea, even though it's 3 days after 5th March, still it's not too late to wish her (again) HAPPY BIRTHDAY ~ YEO SIEW CHENG... this year, i guess you wont be comin to Brunei since you are busy and for other personal reasons, so we'll save your present till next time you come here, or till we meet next time in KOREA! I'll tapau you Kim beom...not.

Hmm~ i dnt know what to say now, i wished you already, so let's talked about something else.
Still blank...

Nevermind~ i'll continue what i wanna talk about on the next post.

=>Hint: Somthing about Yeo Siew Cheng...with pics spam XD >3>

I did all the editing, so posting is coming soon...

For now, im going bed. Night~

Back to Bishi Hunting!

2009-02-23T22:30:00.007+08:00

Fell out of love last week and is 100% healed. XD My legendary 5minit recovery didnt work this time. It was actually all thanks to a Friend of mine Jackson, thanks to him and Angeline who kept me accompany.

This was the 2nd time I cried for a guy for all i know. XD Damn now Im really all right coz I dont think 7zai is the one that Im waiting for. Because the girl he likes is Damn DAmn DAmn......Super O____O Stupid. Describing the girl further, she is a girl who you will think OMg how innocent she is but later then you can see the fox tail slowly showing. Yup she is two timing on 7zai, as I know so far even though she dont admit it...yea who cares XD. 7zai is gonna get hurt really badly anyway, hope that all goes well for him. Well I would go back on my Bishi bishi Hunting missions! XD yea man Siewcheng is back in business!

Well first target: Kim Beom OPPA! Ah damn that radiant smile!Yes Before that was GU Jyun Pyo....but what so ever. These is and ever is the first Korean drama series I like the best. Phuck It has 3 out of 4 Bishies in it! Its better than the Jp and Tw versions. Tw has none and Jp has only 1 out of4 bishies. So overall Bishiness rules than the plot of the story XD!

So that's not all for now. Gonna post some Old Pics of Shel, Wanwan and me. XD Wani had been pestering me for the photos for a long time de......and yes as SC is forgetful and lazy, she is now gonna post it. Wan, I still had no idea how to put the photos at the Header.....DX will find it out soon after I finish my 2D animations Hws.

So this is our IDEAL place to hang out everytime I come back to Brunei. XD

Omg I look like a camwhore! XD nvm about it.....hmmm the others you can find it in my facebook bah. I guess, shel uploaded it if Im not wrong. Seow man I upload A few also kena error.....Wtf is happening to my COMPY!

Okay thats all for now, cant waste more time now. Need to RUSH MY ASSIGNMENTS PRONTO! I NEED MORE GU JYUN PYO AND KIM BUM! AND BOF!

In need of ointment...

2009-02-22T21:47:00.001+08:00

Some of the senpai during the training

Ok so now im on the way home, in the car, still at tutong just after visiting my grandmother. She has been in the hospital for almost 2 weeks now. Just hope she recovers soon.
So this week has been a busy week for me that i owe teachers lots of homework due tuesday.
Well i barely can remember most things i wanna type about, of course its about things that happened within this week, mostly about AKD seminar.

Start off with monday, hmm...nothing much bout school, im just eager to go for AKD training at melabau, which me and my sis were totally lost =____=
Training starts at 7.30pm, but arrived there after 8 ... so dead. Got advised from sensei in charge that night. Seriously, that night i was stiff, as in i was really uncomfortable that i cant concentrate properly...it feels like their eyes struck through me.

Training time: Tuesday(3pm&8pm), Wednesday(9am, 3pm & 8pm) and Thursday(9am & 3pm)
I only came for the afternoon and night training.

Then tuesday, my PS is in the afternoon, so im saved, in a way that i can go home to eat lunch and get changed into my keikogi. But before that i have meeting to attend to...
Then i made it 30mins before 3pm. Then train, of course i did my mistakes here and there... Grassy came, the only bishie there.
The night, me and sis arrived 25min before 8, and when we got there, Cigar-senpai was there, just arrived too i guess, so senpai was tying his belt XD so i tied my belt too in the car...[i should have come out and tagged CiGar-senpai along]
Then when i went up to dojo, cigar-senpai asked me, first thing first when i was off-guarded... >///< style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(255, 102, 0);">

Wednesday, let see, my PS was in the morning, surely was doing my hwk. So afternoon, i have phy practical, which teacher did say to come early if we wanna finish early, especially those that are doing LDR experiment. So i paired up with Nisa, since she also has to go training with me before 3, so we start at 12.15pm, without my lunch... So we finished at 2, depart and picked my sis at muara then went to dojo. 15min before 3pm... and we get changed. And so we trained...
That night, i kept saying to myself, it would be my last day to see cigar senpai[since i RARELY get the chance to see him cos rarely he comes training with us].
There were photo takings... i try to sneakly take pics of cigar-senpai... failed but till the end, i got it XD ok so that was it...i was like, bye bye senpai, see you next time >w<

Thursday, so yea, really, afternoon class i got chem practical, and Nisa got her bio, and my chem tcher is so [for the very first time i have to say this ] ANNOYING~ much. I finished my practical at 2pm, and what he did was, he do the correction for previous practical, and only let us out by 2.30...which that was the time i need to be at the dojo, and so me and Nisa departed from school at 2.40 and arrived exactly at 3, and warming up already starting...pfft lucky i wasnt scolded. No bishie that afternoon of last training, and few people only.
And on tuesday and thursday, i skipped KND training, and i teacher/senpai saw me not coming for KND practise. [sorry teacher, i dont have any intentions of escaping training]

With the last training ended, "i need ointment...", cos i found there were bruises on me, with muscles hurting on every move i take. Ahh~

The night, it was DINNER! I departed from house at 7pm. Going to tungku... and arrived around 7.40. I imagined the house big, you know, house of rich people, but then, when i reached there, it was beyond what i had imagined O.O it was REAL big for a house, and there was swimming pool XD it reminds me of Goo Jun Pyo drowning in BOF ep3.

When about to go there, i was saying to my sis, "if by any chance Cigar-senpai is gonna popped his head there at the dinner, i will be shocked..." cos for those who will be comin to the dinner, there is this attendence sheet we have to sign but Cigar didnt sign his, only see Grassy's signature.

And~ guess what... when i arrived, no sign of Cigar senpai, so me and my sis sat with the grown ups table, listening to their funny stories xD
Then, since my seat can see who will be coming, so then i saw one senpai...and behind him i see a very "chibi" person... Cigar-senpai O///O *suffocated* ahahah laughing all to myself when i saw him. But he sat some other table, cant really observe...XD

My dinner...[I should have eaten some other food than my usual style of dinner] TwT

My favourite is the dessert XD sweet~

The closing of the dinner, group photo takings...(scrap out from hafiz senpai blog) Ow<
*[try to spot Grassy, Shel fall fer him on first sight ]
There are also autograph session with the sensei...

Around after 10.30pm, i called my mum, and while waiting for my parents at the front gate, i didnt see CG senpai, then one car passed infront of our waiting spot, without my glasses, i just stare who owns the car, O..o oh~i saw CiGar senpai in taht car xD blindly i just stare dumbfounded.

Anyway, it was a very grand, nice dinner for me. I enjoyed every trainings there. It was worth it.
BLISS~

Hoping for more seminar...BANZAI!

Just random videos

2009-02-20T20:36:00.002+08:00

*[Actually this post i uploaded to my blog, forgot to upload it here. After a week of bad connections, then am able to surf the net.]

So here it is~

Back to my daily routine, watching online vids...

I think last few days, Baz said there is a video uploaded in Youtube, something bout the new PTE Katok. So i decided to check it...
PTE Katok random vid

While i was searching for BOF drama to watch, i found many interesting videos...

SeungRi's confession..."i have girlfriend..." O_______o

Then, just last night, i saw FT Island new MV OwO
Oh~ and Won Bin is out of the group for some reason...and replaced by a new member, Song Seung Hyun(16yrs old; Korean age is 18 if im not mistaken =.=)
In their new mv... JaeJin looks super MANLY XD also MinHwan, both of them really are like grown ups. But Hongki is still the best...
FT Island - Bad Woman MV

I think this is WonBin last mv as FT Island member before he left. I really like Hongki in this mv.
FT Island - The One MV

HongKi trying to dance DBSK Mirotic dance XD *funny*
*note: Hongki is the second guy who dance with that funny expression. This is from the show Good Daddy...

Then, also i found GeunSuk somehow new CF/MV for YEPP and Haptic mobile...
Jang GeunSuk - Touch-holic

*note: CF=commercial vid

And lastly, found HyeSung NEW mv, just released recently...
Shin HyeSung - Why did you call? MV

sad sad mv, but somehow watching hyesung sad makes me happy XP

Okay~ so back to my another usual daily routine...doing homeworks DX

Things closest to you fades off Quickly

2009-02-07T20:37:00.002+08:00

Well first of all thanx WanWan for updating the blog. XD even though I was the one who set up the rule to put pics pics up everytime for each post. Well as you all know the usual lazy Yeo.....XD.

Kay Kay starting off with what happened all this while. I got some bad terms with 7zai before Chinese New Year, well you asked what happened. I actually slapped him out of fun( My typical way of skinship back in the past ran through my brain that time) Well it was executed in a bad time =___=''.

We had somehow stopped talkin with each other for awhile and plus I had problems with Yunshin too. He thoght that girls should be more polite and quiter so he always stopped me doing my usual way by his scary aura. TT___TT

Dick....hmmm he really changed alot....I mean really. In the past he would asked if I did like to go out when somethings up but now He.....slowly forgets. That makes me quite sad.....I thought we were somehow quite said as special friends. I did like his lively, comedic, helpfulness in the past back! >___<

In the end they made me trembled with fear and confusion sometimes. Ended up making me NOT myself in front of them, Uneasiness surrounds me when Im alone with them. I dont get it at all, How come we were so Close before and now we became that far off. I don't really like it.
>[]
All these are making me turning into things that I don't really like. Those who's out there would say JUst be Yourself. Well back to the basics Its easier to be said then done, get it. So in the end I'm just still a confused little kid who has lost her way again. Bad timing I guess, sometimes I do think that I should be in Brunei rather than in Malaysia right now. But I would lose the change to meet them.

Truth is I like them more than anything, I like the time we spent together but they in another way I had no idea if they hate it. TT___TT Another truth revealed is They....really DONT CARE a DAMN About me! NOw that is the Problem that I fucking Dont know why should I be cared of! Aish......I really thought that we were Brothers. Dick once told be that but I think he forgot.

I want this March to come quick and fast coz I did like to spill everything out on Dick's Bday. We the 456 ( Dick Me and Angeline). Hoping that this Bday plan won't Fail, I want to at least be one of them.

7zai is out of the question, he is actually not as important as Dick's case right now. Aish Hope Dick would go back to his old self or Me goin back to my own self.

[A]: My brain cramped

2009-01-31T21:27:00.003+08:00

Thursday - 29thJan
Start with Thursday, I arrived school exactly 0745, which i was lucky teacher was still there to take my attendance or else it would be my 3rd time taking late slip. Then, went straight to physics lab, bumped into Andrew on the way, after few days of not seeing him since he went Malacca to celebrate CNY. So straight to 1st floor, get my seat, and since my seat in phy lab is facing the door, so i would be waiting for something to pop infront of my eyes, which is the Pharaoh. With the smile that can[more like always] distracts me, i have to get over with and took my papers out.
Atfter phy, is block 4, it's PS and we didnt do much.
Then my ASL class after break...and i forgot [actually dont bother] that there was test on poetry. I flipped the books and read what i can, but it didnt matter cos what i read didnt come out, another poem which i totally forgot bout came out..."A Birthday"-Christina Rosetti. I spent many minutes on doing rough ideas which i just simply do...doodling around, then [since i dont have my watch wiht me for a very long time since last year] when i feel like time is almost over, i wrote one paragraph, but that paragraph got cancelled, i did another new paragraph... and so my flower-ish language completes the one page including the cancelled paragraph. I didnt have time to analyse bout the structure...

So, after ASL, was maths...nothing unusual.
Then comes lunch...since i was not in a good state of walking too much...went toilet, chem lab[on 2nd floor which cause me to run out of breathe - i need to improve my stamina] and shel went to the dining hall using a pathway near the grand stand...oh then comes the good part, once reached the dining hall, immediately saw Pharaoh, with his frens, near their table, the PTEK's mascots, the female cat, was staring at their table, begging for food XD I was looking at the cat, when suddenly i saw one head tilted to see the cat too, and that head was Pharaoh's head... without me glasses so i just looked away to catch up on shel.

Then bumped into Andrew again, and he pulled us to the drop-off point, to give souveniers he got from Malacca. Then head our back to the canteen[aka dining hall], Shel wanna play my last year popular trick called "oh~ forgot to tie my shoelace", where once you said that quote, you have to bend down to act like you tie you shoelace...but unlucky for Shel, when she bend down, the wind blew her tudong, so the tudong covered her face taht she cant see her way, and i was dumbfounded on what to do, to make things worse, we were at the MIDDLE of the ONE and ONLY path to go to canteen, meaning thats where people come and go...and cos Shel cant see her way, bad thing was she SQUATted exactly where we stopped...in the MIDDLE of the road.
She squatted the a statue of WHITE riceball on the ground XDD [it was funny though, and embarrassing cos people was weird why i stand there stiff, then when they looked down, they will see the riceball XD ] I have to thickened my face cos Pharaoh was passing infront of me, when shel was still squatting for so long,[i was still dumbfounded]. So shel gather up her courage and stood up, pulled off her tudong and we head to the nearest toilet[which is not that near...pfft]

P/s. Sorry Shel, didnt help you out of the mess[mess that you made yourself]...i should dragged you out, rather than being a statue there. But at least like what you said, like what you Eng Lit teacher said, we made our history by being the riceball and statue and people were looking at us on our last year of school life. I felt cheered up thinking bout that, cos always i would tell myself that was a stupid thing to do to be watched by many eyes that looked. That was one new thing i tried in my life...to be laughed by people.
And Yeo, you werent there to create the history with us...

Saturday - 31st Jan
And today, my brain seriously doesnt wanna function properly like usual. Start with the night before, i have 3 assignments to do. From morning till afternoon on friday, i was on the computer since i was lazy to do my hwk, till after 8pm that i start do my maths assignment. But since got chem early in the morning the next day, so i did my chem hwk first, finished all...then my phy assignment...till 11pm i got to finish it. After that, resume back with my maths assignment, till 1am, i didnt manage to finish my maths, so went to bed.
The next morning, that is this morning, woke up at 5am, sleep back till 0520...went bathroom. Packed my books from last night, depart at 0615, and arrived early around 0635, and do phy hwk[some questions that i left out] and my maths.
everyone was busy with their results, results was out on friday...and since there arent any reulst on the net, so i dont know what i got for my maths. When they asked me, i just say "sorry i havent see my results yet"
0745, went to chem, after that phy, as usual, pharaoh is somehow like my medicine in school if i feel down.
Since i dont know what my maths result was till i checked it on the borad near the admin, i have to see my chem and phy teachers to get their signature for my AS June exam during the break time, but the teachers are busy, either busy eating food at the conference room for CNY, or registration of new lower 6 students in the multi-purpose hall. Plus, i have to give my permission slip to skip maths class in the afternoon for i have to go to STEP Centre for APhO, i have to look for the one and only teacher but he wasnt around...
Then after break, PS, i continue on my maths...and here and there i hear forms this and that form has to be sent by monday 2nd Feb, i cant focused on my maths. Gahh~
Lucky by the time PS ended, i finished my maths, just few more to go which i totally finish it all during ASL class, since teacher wasnt teaching anything, as she has problem with ASL block 5 mixing with ASL block1. We were let off 30mins before lunch, so i took that time to get both my chem and phy teacher sign. Went to the admin to see my chem teacher, than head to multipurpose hall to see phy teacher. When going out of the hall, saw pharaoh again...

So, lunch time, went home instead going to maths class, eat lunch and by 1320, depart and went to STEP Centre for Asian Physics Olympiad (APhO) written test.
The test was SO nuts~ there are 4 questions to be done within 1hr.
The first two questions i know the basics, Q1 was on Hooke's Law,bungee jumping, elasticity, and Q2 was on pressure kind-a-thing... but the problem is, the questions ask bout DETAILED stuff, too deep that i cant sink my brain in them...i ONLY managed to ans Q1 part (a). Q2 was supposed to be easy cos i remember teacher explained it last year about pressure on liquid, but of course, the usual me forgot how to RE-explain that.

Worse is, Q3 and Q4 are total nuts~ Q3 was asking something bout time taken to ignite a fire on a piece of paper by focusing the sunlight through the magnifying glass etc... [pfft~ nowadays, all you need is a match stick and burn the paper XD ]
Q4 is sure i dont bother to read many time, cos once i read it,"something bout dust in the cosmic, the size...radius of sun, and there are comets..." ahh~ whatever it reads there, i sure will leave it blank...

Then without realising it[of course i dont have watch to keep up with time], 1hr was over...

So i messaged shel, bout the hard questions, and she said something bout, "oh you just finish is it? i also just finish since i follow fatin to a meeting [which i believe the prefects meeting]", then something bout fatin being a prefects, so shel also following her, meaning Shel is somehow a PREFECT...and the sentence that disturbs me till now: "oh i saw your bishie at the meeting, got good view somemore.." bad thing is , i dont know which bishie she was refering to [waseh, me so not loyal XD ] - but i think it's pharaoh... -meaning he also applies to be a prefect just like shel...

Oooohhh~ prefects... why must you be a prefects Shel, [the kind YSC doesnt like...]
So~ with Shel sudden decision to be a prefect, and i still figuring out which bishie shel refers to, im gonna rest my head for now after a busy day that cramps my brain. For real and the first time, i felt my brain was cramped...i thought i have Parkinson

And hope to see more bishie juniors[although some would be around my age] - somehow i hope Cloud-senpai would register to PTEK... XD

Till then, GOODNIGHT

[A]: After a very long time...

2009-01-28T16:03:00.007+08:00

Warning: super LONG post XD breathe once in a while when reading.

Main Dish : Boys over flower k-ver

Side dish: Hello god

Dessert: Bloody Monday and Q.E.D

Ok, first thing first,an addiction that can kill me if i dont watch it...BOYS OVER FLOWER...familiar name? ahhaha well that's cos it a remake of Hana Yori Dango(Japenese) and Meteor Garden(Taiwanese), and it's KOREAN version of it.

I was so half-spirited before watching it...but then after watching 1st epi, well it cheers me up, my spirit boosts up that i wanted to watch more of the story, more of the love love part.

I'll just summarise what i want to point out.

-When i watched the 1st epi, one big thing that distract me, the name of the high school that the story takes place, it's called SHINHWA high school...i thought Shinhwa members are gonna popped out, act as some other characters XD but yea, it's just a name.

-After watching epi3, i started to think that Goo Joon Pyo is a bishie...ok, but if he just uncurl his curly hair XD but that his character anyway, so he's still bishie.

-Next is, Kim Bum who acts as Yi Jung, is cute when he smiles...my sis likes him, before he even show up in the drama, when she was watching MKMF2007 i guess...

-My reason to watch BOF now is because of Lee MinHo, aka Goo Joon Pyo XDD When he acted in "I am Sam", [at the time when i was so into TOP of BigBang] he was already a bishie to me just that TOP hypnotize me more that i dont really bother MinHo's existence there.

I have to stop talking bout BOF, this drama will make me talk bout Minho endlessly.

Real thing~
It has been long time since i blogged last time.

As my apology, let me introduce a korean+korean

produces a mixed look alike korean XD [dont bother if you dont get what im trying to say]...ok in a simple sentence, Yoo Geon is a pure korean and yet he got "orang putih"mix features[like how Yeo would say XD ]

First fall for him when i watched one of the episodes of Drama City,the image of James Franco keeps popping out in my head and so the bishie test is a total pass for YooGeon. And again, actually before that i saw him once in Star Golden Bell show and he is the guy in Kim Dongwan's Handkerchief MV... which in that mv didnt fall for him[probably cos in that mv he was bald] gwahaha

Ok, now the real thing~

Well~the one main reason that i didnt blog for such a period of time is cos of school. So school starts, and it wasnt a good start with all the chaotic atmosphere of the new PTE Katok, till after 2 weeks or so.

Now after almost a month studying at that school, it's kinda fun actually ^w^

Many, i guess appealed back to MD, as there werent enough of everything(like teachers, scientific apparatus)... Even if i wish to move back to MD, writing letters are just not my dad's custom. Oh well, so i just go with the flow, which in returns are a happy thing to think about.

First, with my homeroom class...since our names are arranged alphabetically, with my initial 'A', so i somehow end up in AE1. Shel is in AE20. Since i state here what AE im in, dont hunt me down ok XD

Just wanna say this in a very simple sentence, i am in the same maths class with Eragon and Pharaoh(just joined recently to my maths class), and phy class with pharaoh... so kinda ok there are at least some classes that has bishie in it. Yeo, your so called shel's childhood friend bishie is... not even one class with him, but will bump him most of the time.

Talking bout bishies, there's for sure one super bishie when i [and shel] saw him on the very first day of school, called Stripey... which i dont think he is a bishie now cos of his attitude since he know he is the most super bishie in that school ...pffft. Dont ask me who Pharaoh is and why i called him pharaoh.

Ok so off with all the intro of the new school.

Let see, hmm...

Oh, it has been rainning this days. You can hear Flood and landslides everywhere...mostly somewhere around my area. Nevertheless im survivng it.

Because of the inconvenient condition of the road due to landslides and flood, for the first time in my history that i arrived late to school last wednesday(21-01-09) at around 0815. Shel didnt come school that day. Good thing is my PS is early in the morning every wednesday.

After PS, went to my ASL class in LT.

One thing i wanna point out - If there is announcement through the speaker, dont joke saying your name will be called, why... cos i was sitting next to Farhanah, there was an announcement, and i joked, "oh i should go out, my name is being called..." XD

Then, i heard my name was announced with some others that i know. So yea, was told to go to admin, and see this bio teacher.

Straight to the point, the teacher said those names that were called are chosen to represent the PTEK to Physics Olympiads. We would have to face some written test(which i have to do this saturday) and probably interview. And IF we have the luck, we would be able to go to Thailand...which i dont hope high for this competition. There are six of us, 3 girls and 3 boys chosen, but only me, afiq and jien han filled our form, the rest backed out.

Then for the second time of this year, i arrive late again on Saturday,24-01-09, cos of the heavy traffic congestion.

Yesterday, Tuesday, 27th Jan, one thing made me really happy...pharaoh is in my maths class XD

It was a bright day... during break time, me and shel was talking outside maths class...the bell rang so i went to class, shel went to her eng lit.

Since my seat is facing the door[which i found it very distracting to sit facing the OPEN door everyday and people will pass by and i will turn to look], but that day, i saw pharaoh passing by the class...OwO *smiled* I thought, oh so coincidence... but then the worse thing is, i see him again outside the door, STANDing there, *shot by the two blind eyes(he is short sighted like YSC) of his XD * i cant seem to stop smiling so i distract myself to take my maths book, and so that statue standing outside the room went in with maths teacher. And as what one thing dashed in my head is coming true, cos he joined my maths class. Gaah~ what a day xD

Actually before all that happen, during my ASL class, teacher was saying us in ASL block 5 will mix with those in block 1. So that means my maths will just have to move to other block, and actually i dont mind since only Eragon is the bishie in my maths class. So when talking with shel bout moving my maths class, i said bye bye to eragon jokingly, then suddenly after i said bye bye, eragon head popped out from one of the class >.<"

After the Pharaoh incident transferring to my maths class...i shouldnt have said bye bye to eragon cos i still want to be in that maths class. But luck was on my side, teacher said ASL block 5 wont have to move, instead ASL block1 will move to block 5. Ahh~ happy ^w^

Hmm thinking should i be going for AKD training tonight or not, since i got a feeling that the kawaii kid will not come.

Oh~ talking bout the cute kid, well i dont have a name for him yet, met him officially last two weeks ago[i met him once a month ago but dont really "see" him], he just moved to our dojo, he was from KB and since his parents stayed in bandar, so he has to come to join us with his cousin, Mouse-senpai. This cute kid is a year or two years younger than me, so i wont fall for him, but since he so kawaii~ i would like to tease him XD [even though i never tease him actually, but i feel like doing it] oh once i think i teased him, not the cruel tease but just for fun. And seeing him make me smile, my sis and my fren will smile seeing him too XD

So my first meeting with the Cute, last two weeks ago, first impression, as usual, he super kawaii...=w=

Skip to the main point, since only me and my fren were the only girl, with the Cute and Mouse-senpai, us 4 only...so when i paired up with Cute, he asked me lots of question...like my name, age, from which school and how long i've been training AKD. I should have asked him the same question too *regret* ... when he asked me how old i am, i was lying flat on the ground [not facing him] cos we were practicing second lock, i asnwered 17, then i tapped the mat, so he let me go but still holding my arm, then suddenly he MASSAGED my right arm >///<

And one more thing, he is just like YooGeon, he is a pure chinese[if im not mistaken] but he looks like malay+orang putih(little bit) mix. Im shocked @w@"

So my right arm was harassed by a cute young man XD

Ok~ so stop here, since it's too long and no one will bother reading it anyway...

Feels to be like Home

2009-01-06T02:04:00.002+08:00

And yet again no pictures since my MOBILE is still sick T___T I want pictures.....and comp has virus........still.

Anyways back to my story: Angeline and me still living in the samosamo place and Dick is now happily living with his happy happy DG frens including: Yunshin, Chee Hau, Jackson, Zhi Hui and So so others. They have move to a house which had just renovated nicely......T___T and it is yes as what I said NICELY!

A place that looks like a complete HOME to us.....T___T esther Im gonna kill u! Anyways we went to all boys house to have our first homecook dinner by Chef Yunshin. It was quite nice.....only the baked beans which is from the can XD! But in the kitchen we had alot of fun! XD And the fun ends when my nose bled....T___T We the two little maids.....do the washing and helping them with all sorts of things.

Lastly We ate in a manner-d way excluding me which kena caught red handed by them of my leg putting up the chair.....T___T. Later on went to YunHau (Yunshin x Chee Hau) room to do homework. The bed is equaling to a sofa, Chee Hau got pissed when we didnt wash our feet and step on his bed. Some did hws and some PLayed, our life goes on like that fer almost 7 hours. I dug in Yunshin bed fer a test out when he went out....! TT___TT Wish to have aircons with comfy Bed!

Later on when the time to go home, Chee Hau took us home coz it was 2am de....TT___TT feels super scary at that time when all of us dun talk.....so I tried to talk talk talk and talk. XD

well.....I hope that I can pass this year again pluz I wani and shel with get good result in A' level! XD good luck!

[A]: Lowtie and Bearey

2008-12-17T23:40:00.007+08:00

Lowtie [turtle] and Bearey [bear cub]

"MRS.SHINWA HAPPY BIRTHDAY PLZ FIND A NEW HUSBAND"
*note: Shinhwa is spelled as S H I N H W A, not Shinwa XD
and according to yeo and shel, when the person who did the writing on the cake, he/she was shocked to hear im still 17 and yet i was asked to find a new husband XD [im still under age...and if my husband are members of Shinhwa, i'll be glad to XD ]

Today went outing at Mall[typical place in Brunei] with Yeo Siew Cheng, Shel and my sis.

Early in the morning, went to clinic with my mum. My sis called around 12pm, so have to pick her up at Muara. Then straight had lunch at Serusop. Had to rush cos I promised shel and yeo we would meet up after lunch. SO I managed to arrive Mall at 1430. Hence our adventure begin~

Nothing specific to do, so we walked around to waste time. We planned to watch Twilight but yea~ it was almost full, left with the front seats [dont want the front seats cos Yeo afraid her neck go "cacat" after 2hrs of looking up the screen XD ]. Plus she has to go climb up the KK mountain on 20th Dec. So we went to food court to think what we want to do...

Since we got nothing to do, we wlked around again, talked, then around 4pm went back to food court, drinking kokoberry and eating shel's crepe[which shel pronounce it as CRAB XD] with the rabbit poo >w<

After all the eating and drinking, shel said Arvy is in Brunei, so Shel messaged him to come since Yeo wanted to see him. He came around 1830 something...then we all decided to have our dinner at IDEAL [our "ideal" spot...]

Well~ i didnt expect yeo and shel planned "something" for me..

When at ideal, Shel, yeo and Arvy were all busy talking...after we got our food, shel suddenly got message from her "dad", saying her dad was waiting for her outside SKH, so she went out with yeo, leaving me, my sis and Arvy and the quiet atmosphere =_____=" [Well that's cos im not so talkative, plus im not that close with Arvy] But still got some small talk with him.

"What's atking Yeo and Shel so so LOONG~ ?"yes they were taking all their sweet time outside when i dont know what to do inside...finally after long minute, Yeo appeared, without shel, saying that shel has to go home, her dad scolded her for staying at emily's house...i thought that was real. then Yeo suddenly got call from her landlady, which is in KL [things start to get weirder] When i try to look at her mobile, she avoided it...so i thought she needs some privacy.

I swallow all my curiousity, till shel suddenly popped out with cake on her hands. OwO

Yes, i guess that was a cake for my birthday [delayed a bit cos waiting for YSC to come from KL ] I have to admit, I was surprised XD ... my mind was thinking of nothing all the time since i was left with Arvy and my sis is like a WALL...XD [means she do her own stuff]

Anyway, thanks YSC and Shel [is Arvy included? XD ] All the while, even Arvy knew they were planning on something, only me and my sis so dum-dum >w<

I got new "pet"...i called the yellow turtle Lowtie, and the Bearey for the small cub XD [both given by YSC], and i think something from shel but she left hers at her house, will get it next outing...

The presents are loved, but the memories created are the treasure [XD i can be mushy too, but to call it as wisdom ]

Something not related

=> well, you know that Mall is like the place where the chance of meeting someone you know is very HIGH...to say it, saw Ko-san [got eye-contact with him even though so blurry, but yea didnt greet him cos shel was leaving me XD sorry Ko-san ], my sensei[did greet a little =__=" ], Black aka Kuro...some others that i know but they dont know me XD . Shel saw her friends too...except for Yeo, she is consider outsider.

COmin Back again!

2008-12-13T21:15:00.004+08:00

Im back from my Trip back to my hometown, Yong Peng. I had yet again learn nothing special there XD I just went back for the free food and drink and clothes and .....XD. Anyways I crashed at my Grandma's house first then later on at my Cousins house, it was quite complicated. I was really really BORED in my grandma's house, Imagine a whole day without entertainment, luckily there was TV. And worst of all I forgot my headphone fer my mobile means I had a whole long month without good musics =___='' thats the worst!

There's quite alot of photos I took but, I can't connect my phone to the comp since my mobile has virus...which is terribly annoying. >___<>w< Well the big hit is this guy, A singaporean Singer called Derrick Hoh, new guy not really new looks, the clone of Show luo XD. Well this is his hottest MV: 何維健無法歸類

well thats all fer now XD And oh go listen to SUNSET GLOW by BIG BANG!

YEAH HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!!!

2008-12-02T00:52:00.002+08:00

Yeah i want to wish Happy Birthday to my dearest friend WAN WAN!!!!!!!! she old already my busband..oi Yeo .....come back oh...your daddy one year older...she wants a new set of false teeth for her birthday!!! XD ..joking joking...wahseh i tell you this year instead of me buying her things..she is the one who like paid so much for me ......=X....o feel so bad.....i tell you she really is a good buddy....you too Yeo.... i really misss you like crazy!!!!! hope to see you soon yea......dont lari anywhere when i come back from Kalimantan......wah it's the first time i go shopping with Wani and see the feminine side of Wani.......she likes the girlie shirt also you know!!! I wish i was rich then i could have bought for her the clothes that she likes....wish you were there tooo.......then we could have ask you to wear the mini skirt......T_T...why did it have to be in
KL?????

Anyways just wanted to post something since you all always not online.....

Thanks WAN AND YEO!!!!!!!........

[A]: Happy happy b'day~

2008-11-21T20:55:00.005+08:00

This month November sure has lots of people i somehow know celebrated their b'day, including me XD

Start with today, Nov 21, it's super happy sunshine boy, Dongwan! Born on 21st November 1979, so he is basically 29yrs old, f.y.i, he is 30yrs old(korean age). So conclusion is i dnt even know how old he is XD

-Screen caps from his latest mv before he enlist in military service. He looks sad =-="

NOw Dongwan is in military service, so he has to shave his hair XD still looks cool.

KIM DONGWAN - CAN'T FORGET MV

it's kinda sad to see him in this mv DX

So that's it i think. after 2 yrs of service, hope he come back as cheerful as ever. Even though many wishes him for good health, i too wanna wish him extra good health XD COME TO BRUNEI~~ *so random*

Someone whose b'day is in Nov, my sis(on 18thNov; 18yrs old) - celebrated it last tuesday, so pics i'll upload it "soon" ...somehow, - my eldest cousin(15th Nov; 26yrs old i think), my other-so-called-twin cuz(on 27th Nov; 17yrs old...he was born few hrs earlier than me XD )...also on 27th Nov is Hyesung bday XD...and the next day is ...

So i'll call it a day then. Im off for now.

Changing the unchangeable

2008-11-18T15:12:00.002+08:00

Today is the last day of our Perspective and Figure Final project. Everyone was rushing except me.....coz I finished early. Even though I finished early I was still sleepy coz Lack of sleep yesterday. Was accomapnying Dick and Yunshing on their rush works, I helped Yunshing on some of his works.

So lastly we slept 3 hours and woke up. I was the earliest to reach college, thinking that they would be there. Who knows I met Hee chung only, we sat in Ming tian fer awhile and turned to KFC coz it was colder there. Later on we went to Drama Lab where almost everyone in PANIC mode is there XD.

Almost all from DG class...I was really in BLur mode rather than n Panic mode. KH and Zhieng and Lizard was the latest to hand up their Perspective though they looked calm, they are in Panic Panic mode. Pluz the Blur Blur me went on and Kacau them for no reason .......which is a very BAD THING TO DO....die mannn. I think I pissed off Zhieng.....>,< Im gonna die in next year if I ever make them pissed offf. KH I had no idea, I thinkk I pissed him off too. WTF is wrong with me...damn Should have sleep more and talk less next time....=___='''

Bah lah Im just regretting of what I've done. Argh wanna change back to my old self.......without Bad words or doin stupid stuff,.......

AH HOliday but not HAPPY!

[A] 10th anniversary

2008-11-16T20:13:00.004+08:00

YES~ this year, 2008 is the year both my fav boy band, WESTLIFE and SHINHWA, celebrating their 10th anniversary...

Since i talked too much [not really] bout shinhwa, let's go straight to westlife...
Some brief info on westlife...debuted on 3rd July 1998 [shinhwa debuted earlier, 24th march '98], consisted of 5 members. The group's original lineup comprised Mark Feehily(lead vocalist), Shane Filan(lead vocalist), Nicky Byrne, Kian Egan,and Brian McFadden. The other 3 are songwriters[they also sing though]. But Bryan left westlife to spend more time with his family and work on solo projects [ i did feel sad when bryan left westlife havin thought that westlife will disband, but the four continue till now, so im happy ^^ ]

Start with how i know them~
I got to know them when i was still in primary 3, 1999, Ghim Moh Pri School, S'pore.
There was this one time, got karaoke [yes more like almost every mornin we got karaoke during the assembly to improve our english...] and the very first time i saw westlife was through their mv "Swear it again" since it is the first in the list of their 1st album XD
Click the link for the exact vid i saw last 9 years...the karaoke version XD
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jFnU39KBe0A

First thing first, just when i saw the video playing [i was bored in that one early mornin that i looked at my surrounding instead of reading my story book] i like NICK cos he got like rabbit teeth XD till now, i still like Nicky... and he was[still "is"] my first bishi that is orang putih XD

It has been like 6 years i didnt check on them, till recently when out of boredom, i want to download english songs to my mobile, i downloaded one westlife song "the rose"...which i think the lyrics is REALLY nice...it has deep meaning in it. Shel also downloaded the song and make it her ringtone.
So i dedicate the lyrics to YSC since she is now alone in KL and ALWAYS hav problem with her love life XD *the last two stanzas is a strike*

THE ROSE

Some say love it is a river
That drowns the tender reed.
Some say love it is a razor
That leaves your soul to bleed.

Some say love it is a hunger
An endless, aching need
I say love it is a flower,
And you it's only seed.

It's the heart afraid of breaking
That never learns to dance
It's the dream afraid of waking
That never takes the chance

It's the one who won't be taken,
Who cannot seem to give
And the soul afraid of dying
That never learns to live.

When the night has been too lonely
And the road has been too long.
And you think that love is only
For the lucky and the strong.

Just remember in the winter
Far beneath the bitter snow
Lies the seed that with the sun's love,
In the spring, becomes the rose.

This post is just a random post... I'll post things that happened to me within this week while my internet went berserk, maybe tomorrow or when i am free enough to blog. And with that im off for now.

Something not related
=> once, i bought westlife original album (that cost me RM49.90 - so expensive oh for my young age of 11 i think...XD ), "Unbreakble - The Greatest Hit vol.1" ... now that im into them again, after 6 yrs of ignorance...i have to search where it is now XD...i saw it many times last 5 yrs but i just ignored it,and now it's like gone i think...i just hope i didnt throw it away >,<||ll time for my treasure hunting ~

Predictable the UNpredictable! XD

2008-11-07T22:03:00.002+08:00

Today drama, uhhh got pictures but it will be alittle late. Its on Jelly's hands! which is.....the most most most most most VALUEABLE thing ever! OMG the camera's price has gone up to Thousands and millions after taking Pirated XD!

So I will start off on the beginning of my story. Woke up ALMOST late in the morning coz I had pratice the other day and TODAY EARLY in the MORNING I had to pratice again which is quite a good thing to do since.....XD I can see someone! I thought their group was tomorow who knows it was today. I waited and waited all his group memebers was already here but he is NOWHERE to be seen. Then yup one of my spy AK let me know what was he up too...as I expected.....DOIN his HAIR...hahahahaah! XD

Then I had to practice at the other room that's it. We had alot of fun coz there was....ZA ZA ZA CHIANG! Big Bro DIck! XD Well I haven't told you all, what are we acting ho, the title of our drama is "Midsummer Night Remake" XD. Well I as the 2nd female main character Helena and a guy, YES A GUY acted as the Main female main character XD that really made a BIG impact! XD

Well later we had a small break of our practice and I n Jelly n Dick were doin crazy stuff. First of all Dick did a Jay Chou concert! XD super nice! then more and more audience came in...Pirated was the last one, I locked him out when he wanted to come in XD. He was in the What the....expression XD. Of course I let him in at the end...XD WEll today exactly I was just running around doing crazy stuffs....and of course when there's chances to talk to Pirated, I did but all failed XD. He tried to end questions as fast as he could which sometimes makes me pissed! >___
Pirated....>w< >w< >w< >w< I think he know something weird was happening so he tried to hide him against me......wow...so sad. Then I tried to lower it down before that was good...geeez. But just that he won't hide from me then its okay already.....

There's lot of audience appeared in our drama today. XD They laughed like shit coz...of Dick~! XD...I only at the reharsal everyone Laughed....XD coz I did things that are not written in the script. XD

Well as I said Pictures and videos will be posted later...Hope lar! XD

[A]: Teacher's Day & Raya Celebration 2008 - Part 1

2008-10-25T21:56:00.009+08:00

Today super mega ultra HAPPY...cos of many reasons. So this post on celebration might be in to two parts...cos the story can be too long.

Start off~ morning i come wearing my school uniform cos of the change of roles from a teacher to a student. I can see i think im like the only malay who didnt wear raya clothhing...i can see non-muslims wear school uni including shel, but im a malay...=w=", yet even there are chinese wearing the raya clothing... So when Afiq asked why am i not in my baju kurung, i said " im a chinese..." XD YSC's spirit must have possessed my that day and made me too hyper active.

Before the teachers enter, it's all spacy

Lost~

Afiq with the rubik's cube

This guy in red,the one with glasses, an AE, i know him cos he has rubik cube with him everytime...

The raya celebration starts at 10am, since i got no class the whole morning [PS block 5 and no AsL in block 4], so i just help with decorating and go take pictures. Shel supposed to have her english AS in block 5 but escaped, at least got her for few min before she go back to her history class in block 4.

Shel help decorating her class table for a while, then betrays to my class XD

Students from each BEs decorating each class's table [Im not sure what BE is this]

Baz and Niezah

The loner XP

Fatin~

BE 6 table

Helping my class...shel's betrayal ^w^

Helping Haziq with the colouring was me and Wa'ie, the one in green [he really likes green cos he pick the colour green for his colouring]

Then Shahrul [in red] come to help...

They all busy helping, Im busy helping myself take photos XD

Our class BE 8' theme is the 70's style

Haziq, BE 8 brain [as in he contributes the most with his idea]

...and also the busiest person in our class, preparing everything

My homeroom classmate...

BE 8 [ not all are in the pics, just some who were around ]

This is just 15% of what has happened...too long rite the post, cos of all the pics.
I'll continue with the rest tomorrow...i hope. Gonna do my phy hwk.

And if you notice when seeing the pics, especially BE 8, you can see how busy our class brain is, he is everywhere doing his job... THANKS to HAZIQ for all his hard work, decorating BE 8's table.

[Effect 5] more more ... finally comes to end

2008-10-25T21:07:00.005+08:00

Uploading the rest...hope so TwT" FINALLY im done...cos today Raya celebration at school. Am so excited to post something bout today...XD

HeLLo~

Skull look alike XD

[Effect 4] almost to the end...my laziness

2008-10-25T20:43:00.008+08:00

I uploading the rest of the pics me and shel took using this mac...since becoming so lazy if i delay it any longer. Yes even the laughing gas is decreasing...

Tunnel...peek

Fish eyes

Twirl of hands

[A] New side of me

2008-10-24T22:41:00.003+08:00

*I regret not bringing along camera with me today...what to do~ and shel was not there...im on my loner side again

Today was the screening [like a rehearsal] for those who are to perform tomorrow for Teacher's DAy and Raya Celebration in MD.
For us, korean culture club with some volunteers are gonna perform drama...

DOing the screening, was ok...doing fine. I was the teacher, have to shout my voice out as loud as i can, that, Bazilah on the other side can heard me [cos there arent any mics] ... she was shock to see that new side of quiet me XD [i was trying hard to overcome my quiet side too...and maybe cos of that im a bit satisfied i did it and feels happy ^^]
BUT that new side of me of me is just for today...just for one day cos i will be one of the students. If Baz told Marigold or bronze to come tomorrow to see that new side of me, well unfortunate for them cos it's all over XD not their rezeki ah~

Why?
I was supposed to be the teacher but because the discipline teacher was doing the screening, and this country is a country full with M.I.B, so we have to change the teacher to a guy teacher cos there's a scene where Rain Bimbo has to hold the teacher's hand XD . So one guy be the teacher and i'll be one of the students [ initially before i was chosen as te teacher by shel~ i wanted to be the student cos there's no line on what to say..just throw paper ball to the teacher] so I'm ok being the student...i hope so =w=

What i have been thinking is if i am one the students, i am to sit somewhere to someone new i get to know since doing this drama,hmm...i never realise him before till doing this drama and i dont consider him a bishi but i can feel different aura from him...[maybe i think too much and it's just my feeling T____T"] so i just hope i dont make him feel uncomfortable. But being the student, i wont talk too much tomorrow or worse is i wont even say a single word.

And because of the drama, i get to know more friends...i open up to know more guy frens...like the main character, Midi, luqman [both from my BE homeroom whom i have never talk to before this] and two more guys...i not yet talk to them, one is the teacher replacing me and the other one is the aura guy i can sense. FAwzul im ok already with him so he's not consider as my new fren i know today XD

Besides preparing for the perf tomorrow, today i have to help my BE class to decorate our table, even though i dont contribute much. oh and i can exchange smiles with my other BE classmate, Waie. It was a happy day today...
I better off now...or else i rush rush that i left things i have to bring for perf tomorrow. And i have to bring camera too...

The Pirated's Stopmotion

2008-10-22T23:13:00.003+08:00

XD Finally I found his stopmotion vid on Youtube! XD! so here it is!

XD He super funny when he's in this vid, showing another side of him! XD Stupid! Wow I will watch it again and again! even though its not Pirated in it! XD....maybe lar!

Anyways just like this! XD

[A]: Why must I be treated like kid...but it's kinda nice

2008-10-22T23:10:00.002+08:00

So today, I have to practise acting AGAIN DX. my second time gonna perform drama infront of many people...but this time got shel shel to help me calm down a lil bit. But i believe there are tonnes of comment on my acting[that's why i dont like performing cos i will become stiff like kayu] And even though i hold the highest post in "that" club XD, i will get left out cos i am too humble that i dont talk too the members... but i dont mind insted i feel bad cos i didnt do so much so so...

The drama[more like skits cos it's 10 min+] is for the teacher's day and raya celebration day this saturday on 25thOct.
It's a bout a boy who doesnt respect his tcher[and that teacher is ME =_____________=|||ll ] then so so that this guy learn his lesson. the last part is when he[the bad boy character name is Rain Bimbo XD] ask forgiveness from his teacher, shaking hands sort of stuff...yea and it's my hands. and i pat him to show i forgive him...i wonder how i will do in the real stage[not a stage cos it'll be done at dinning hall where there's no stage] i try not to be so stiff.

And cos i was too nervous, so i try to overcome my fear by facing many more strangers, and that is by going AKD training [even though i am flamingo still come] all by my self[cos my sis and the other friends aren't comin cos of exams]
Cos i have to learn to be all by myself, meaning no shel's help in talking etc...which is getting better. But not tonite's case, since it is my first time coming to dojo alone. and i think since im the youngest among them all [plus still a newbie] XD i got treated like kid.

Alos since im not so close with all the grown ups+stranger+more experienced people, i turn to my nature, ie a loner. i sit at the very end...keeps mouth shut.
One thing is super funny, there's short break, after i drink water, i got nowhere to go, so i go to the window and just stare outside and breathe the night air...i heard sensei H [his initials - hope he wont read this blog or else dead me], saying something maybe like "eh see, her friends all not here so left alone..." then i think he asked the others to be friend friend with me and be nice like that.
So resume back training, have to find partner, and i just stand there, then suddenly there's this one guy, my sis likes him sort of thing, so this senpai from one side at the end comes dashing infront of me and gives his hands[it's practise so dont think different XD] i thought i heard sensei H said something but cnt heard it.

Then, the only someone im ok with is my teacher, he was watching me practising with this senpai...when i was falling, my leg hit senpai's leg [ i lost direction XD ] in a way that if the senpai falls he will fall above me [get the picture] then he, my tcher n some other senpai[girls] laugh. My teacher said this" aih~ dont be so harsh la...imagine she is your wife, you cnt be too harsh.." XD i laugh on that comment. [But no feeling ah...my sis book him one XD ]

Something not related
=>I keep thinking about flamingo...afraid something bad happen then feels more embarrass. So lastly have to meditate...the ZEN ver. What i have to learn for zen ver of meditation is: breathe in using one hole of your nose and breathe out using the other XD [how to do that?]

So conclusion is...i think i like it to be called lil kid...sounds funny actually but ok, can be accepted. and the strangers are becoming not a strangers and hope to be friend with them. Dnt wanna be like YSC who...i dnt knw wat to say anymore.
12 am already...so yea gonna go sleep.

One step ahead!

2008-10-22T02:54:00.002+08:00

XD Wow this was the only and ever First time I talked to that cold iced Pirated! XD Most amazingly I called his name then hmmm I realized I wanted him to be my lil bro more than anything else! XD so sad!

Anyways I had no idea why today I was quite crazy to call his name in such a smooth way. =,=!? no idea...., Well today is life drawing I had quite a bad time with it till the middle part only when my cacat lecturer had no idea why only me he told me to change my style so I did changed and it became more and more cacat.....!

Well you do know the legendary doodle crap around blank paper YSC XD. I was quite down coz of that piece of work, I doodled a funny lookin chibi just beside my draw.....which yea a chibi to motivate me to continue do my work. XD Well I can see pirated walking around with nothing to do since he finished already, I can see that he kept walking around my place which I really do hope he will stay put at one place coz I don't like people looking at my works when it is BAD! super embarassing.....>,
Anyways he passed by my place and took a look at my chibi rather than my work lar....then WOW INCOMIN INCOMING!!! RADIANT CUTE SMILE! DX!!! WAHHHH! AIKS its so cute that the whole paper would burn WARR! ROARR! SC CRAZY! Well yet again I had no idea I had courage to talk to him today. WC tricked me again by talking a artblock and gave it to me, saying its ours.....so I took it. Note: It was an A2 artblock so its quite big so I had to hug it alittle but I was quite suspicious of it coz I remembered ours was Orange....so I kept telling WC "Are you sure its ours?" then i put on the chair staring at it. Then I heard a voice asking: " Who's wan?"....then I replied " Not mine"....then Haks.....its Pirated....Phuck!

DX He really did talk.....but sadly he still sees me as transparents sometimes.....and he saw my ugly work....sad man! Others work was NICE! ONly mine....Had no idea why I become so Kanasai suddenly....!

Aish but today was quite a happy day since Pirated finally opened his mouth and talked...even though its just some daily conversations....^w^ still nice to see that he knows how to talk at least! Ahh I really want him as my Lil bro! Well I better get goin and do my work orelse that lil bro thingy is OUT! DX

I wish I could just pASS this semester! Oh and hmmm well I would upload some pics whenever I've time! XD

[Effect 3] laugh... yea seriously, laugh

2008-10-19T20:26:00.005+08:00

Laughing gas comin' your way...[even i laughed at this silly pics...T______________T i never imagined i would do this]

CHEESE~

laugh...

...

the reason for all our laugh is...

I can see alien daddy and saber-tooth mommy XD

Shel's face looks like something, cant remember...

Alien's finger...

Something not related
=> on the title, eg. [Effect x] -something title... the word "effect" is like a chapter... nothing related to the types of effect or so so... just for fun.

More to come...

[Effect 2] - More more mirror

2008-10-19T20:12:00.005+08:00

So i upload it today, supposed to upload it last night cos shel asked so but connection was too slow i do it tonight [i forgot bout it or else i would have uploaded it this mornin' XD...]

HELLO~ [guess whose are those? ]

First try, hmm my heart doesnt attached properly...

Second try, well, Shel heart is the problem... kinda hard to do it perfectly, even my hands got tired

More pics to upload after this...so so.

Meaning of fren

2008-10-17T19:50:00.002+08:00

I dun really get what Fren means anymore....XD this is quite a silly question aint it but this is how humans are interesting. They make the simplest question, hard to answer.

Well anyways todaym thins happen. Went to drama practice. In the end I was the only girl left alone in a bunch of guys. Pirated was in the Drama Lab again but this time I tried all ways to avoid meeting up with him but at last we still met which sucs. I was the one who said to myself that Im gonna talk to him first but all failed. And maybe coz that time I was in deep crap and down....it was the time when I think that I am still a girl.

I became quite a shy person when Im eating with them. Anyways I will repeat the story again XD. Today when my Drama practice ends. We went to drama lab where his fren Virus(in our group wan) stayed there with Dick which we were goin to go eat together, I waited very long. Where pirated got no choice also had to come back upstairs and wait fer him. I was sitting on the table, really had no idea why I was so alone fer awhile, holding a cake given by someone. I wanted to eat but that stupid Pirated go and sit in front of me in a distant but still can see that he is facing me. So How the hell am I goin to eat my cake properly....shit man....he went away after that. Well probably Ming Tian restaurant again which me, Dick and chicken breast is heading next.

When I reached there I saw Virus and Pirated of course but I pretended not to look at them coz I have a feeling they hate me coz Im a lowlife, might be. But who knows suddenly CB pulled me and said we gonna sit together with them. They arranged the table in a row so that everyone face the wall. I quickly grab a sit at the end with Dick, hoping that Pirated can sit further but hahahahahahahaha! PHUCK he sat beside me! Worst part is.......DIck and CB purposely make it squeezy so I had to sit veryyyy near with him. And that made me can't eat my DON anymore, I had to order teh tarik instead...T__T.

Dick's Vietnam fren namely nickname as Communist. I talked to him while Pirated was beside me. The Communist is quite cute XD but no feelings towards him, no worries. I had all my time talking to him while I had no idea what pirated was doin....>,<. Later that Communist wanna bye de so he petted my head...wow....I like people petting my head. Just felt happy which is good sometimes.

Pirated kept talkin to Dick and so....me....not even a glance at all....sad mann. Die lar....ah nvm....anyways I heard his voice at last. XD super funneh....wtf...

bah thats all and Im still in my stressful days.....

Losing myself

2008-10-17T00:09:00.003+08:00

Today was just another fraustated day. Its now not choosing the wrong path but I really feel like dying now. No real frens to talk too before that I said its okay to be a loner but no longer that me exist, the one that can live alone. I can't bring back my laughter my smile my.....hyperness back in this class.

I used to be the centre of the class, ice breaker, the.....joker, the funny one but.....I just can't seem to find that self back again. I feel really disspointed in myself. That self where everyone knows that that's me....that self that....everyone would like to see. I just couldn't manage to pull back that Self again, everyone is like laughing at me, saying I'm gonna die soon. I will just need to strive harder, other say but I just can't, noone is there to support me now, I can't live long there....I can't stay long like this, I might really wilt....I really wanna just vanish in the thin air. I just like to get some Normal frens, I just want to live a happy life without any problems and troubles. I really want to get close to them.....

I want that past self to come back again. I blurred now, blinded in darkness again, hoping that I can get out of this phobia I have. I want to shout out the pain, I want to go crazy, I want to get into a fight! Anything that would HURT myself and forget about everything now. I want to go back........

That's what the situation Im in now. The first day in DG class was okay but after that I had those burdens hanging on me MOre and more....I don't want that. I really hate myself now, I had forgot how to love myself more, I want to spoil myself...I want to just blindfold myself. Let everything get pass by me more and more.

I really want to change...I really want to do that but I had lost the way to do it. I don't remember where I began and where to end. Everyone around me seems to be moving fast again....goin faster and faster....runnnin around me.....getting me dizzy. I dun wanna see it anymore, I want time to stop just fer once, let me rest, let me see the place I wanted to see.

The things I see now is starting to get more and more blur out, the way I listen, the way I feel things, the way I talk. Sometimes I really hope that I would be a guy and things would go easier. I might get an easier life rather than the me now, I really wanna give up on my life now but I really wanna move forward and see what I can do. Will they let me pass this test, will they let me go further, will they let me see what I've been through all this while.

I just asking will they but Im not asking myself....so it should be CAn I do it? Can I make it? Can I let things get worse? Can I stop beign myself? Can I make myself adapt to the place Im in now? Can I just stop asking questions and do my work now? Im phucking Phucked up! Totally Phucked up....

So conclusion is Im growing weaker and weaker day by day. I've quite less energy to get healed in 5 seconds now. I just want someone to talk too but noone in my class would listen....noone....except myself....i really need to get a hold of this...might things be what its been the way it is.

I just don't know now, feeling like I want to freeze in time and never wake up. I might die I might not. Dun worry suciding is not my type, I would just do something that I would hurt myself. I really Dont want to fail on this, I don't want to repeat! I don't want to lose myself to this crapness! I don't want all that to happen.......I want to remember how I laugh back then. I want to know where I have been all this while. The last thing I want to remember is......myself.

Pirated is another distracting object.....he is and I hate it. I really hope that I won't love anyone anymore coz it hurts the people around me. The part that I hate is It hurts me more....I don't want to get into that pain anymore. I really don't want it to go around again so I just want to....forget about him someway or another.

okay I neeed to do hw now.....still need too coz.....its my job.

[Effect 1] ALOHA!!! Daughter ~

2008-10-16T15:51:00.004+08:00

More hands...how many are there?

FIGHT!!! Smile~ ^w^*

Just playing with the effects using Photo Booth in this Macbook...more pics to come... [it's a pity Yeo wasnt there]

In the afternoon, in the library, since there wasnt anything fun to do, we both take pics...for our daughter in KL.

At least she will know her parents here are doing fine. Still being childish...

Something not related
=> Wan's complains: For the first time im doing this... that's not me >,< Shel forced me to...

Piccies

2008-10-16T14:46:00.002+08:00

For more info.....go to my facebook....got more from Miri trip

GARO

2008-10-16T13:52:00.002+08:00

Yesh Wani and I just started watching this GARO drama which Yeo says she likes....hmmmm the main character looks kinda nice reminds me of Wu CHUN and the other knight looks like from Hanazakarino Kimitache.....one of the guys from the hostels.......anyways yeas it was nice very funny too.....we wathced it in school and ummm got some parts quite ahem.....but overall interesting.......I can imagine Yeo in the drama.........getting help from her Makai Knight......Yeo don;t forget to attract bishie for us two......XD

Stop Motion! Finished!

2008-10-16T01:33:00.004+08:00

Here our Final version STOPMOTION namely " Life Is Short". Well the quality is not that good coz we forgot to resize each picture so it hangs whenever we wanted to put photos into the Movie Maker making us having a sleepless night. Anyways heres the result of our show. Enjoy!

So in the end means I still need to do the Open mouth part! AISH! I'm really fed up with this already! He's a GUY for GOD HEAVEN SAKES! DAMN YOU! XD XD XD If he sees this Blog he's gonna kill me and Hate me forever and now.....XD so still I've to talk to him first. I will try lar, geeeez. I think Im rushing things sometimes.....so I will just go on the flow first...geeez.

Aish go on the FLow again......die de lar. Anyways I have a feeling that I have been hanging out with guys lately and it feels like somthing is missing....T__T...=___=''''' So.....geez I think somehow I need some Girl Friends too. But really I have a trauma on making Girl frens now......

I did like someone normal and won't steal my things from me.....but sadly I might get into that situation again if I did really made some girl frens. SO it would just go round and round again but truthfully I have a feeling that I won't make any girl frens now. Just a feeling since I quite knew what they are planning to do to me if Im frens with them which I don't want that incident towards chilli and Norah to reapeat again.

Bah talk too much and splash too much rubbish here. Geez I wanna go die now.

XD I have MADE IT!

2008-10-10T18:18:00.003+08:00

me and my bball skillz!
Im X man!
Eat eat eat!
Well here's some of my Photos taken in KL with my group members DICK and WC aka chicken breast....we have helluva fun! >W<
First things first I lost my specs so Im using my roomate's now. XD So today I can't see anything....

Well I will start the story about today, I woke up at 4 and do some speed painting and surf in the internet for awhile. Slept at 6 then woke up at 8 (note again there was meeting on 10 and I promised that I wont be late). I slept back again, thinking that I would make it in time that is CRAP. I woke up when one of my fren phoned me....I was like SHYT SHYT!

I ran to college sleepily and not eating any breakfast. I reached there I kept saying sorry! TT^TT But luckily they forgave me....sadnya. I went to the drama lab together with them, I saw.....OwO PIRATED in red XD, back to his primariness...XD. At that moment there was someone calling me "Xiao Qing~!" who was actually sitting at the opposite of Pirated but I looked at Pirated thinking that that guy was beside him......damn....my Blindness. I walked closer and saw where the guy was....I think Pirated didnt notice my blindness...hope lar.

There's one HIGH O MIGHTHY called Racheal wanted to have separuh of out training space but the others discussed and said we can go to another class and they can have this Drama Lab. Racheal was thnking of something else, saying that we are leaving behind the bads....why she said that coz the Drama lab somehow smells like fish. But we have no intentions of that and I who is the peacemaker(sorry wan steal yer place fer awhile XD) kept saying Sorry and tried to convince her that it was not like that but she ignored everything. After that we trained at the other place, we came back to the Drama Lab to look at their Drama. Pirated was beign called Honey by Racheal....wow.....XD Pirated put his hand on the chair behind her and leaned towards her...OMG XD. GOOD JOB Pirated! That was the second time I heard Pirated talk which sounded like Duck....XD his english quite cacat when it comes to communication.

Well thats all for that day. I came back to go with Jelly to eat dinner, we had Roti prata. It was about to rain but it didnt happened. We went to ming tian inside to get to KK mart and I saw Virus(pirated fren) who I think that he won't greet me first( I was actually thinking whatever even though he don't greet me I still gonna greet him) But it turned out oppositely, he greeted me first and I was quite happy ^^ coz from what I thnink, greeting people is actually a thing that feels like yer not alone anymore. I was happy even though I dun meet Pirated that time but Yes I did met him. He came in and I've no choice coz before that I told Jelly that I would Greet him even though he would Hate me or say that Im crazy, I would JUST GREET HIM. AND so I did and he smiled....even though I didn't wore my specs...I saw a glimpse of it XD!

At that time I WAS SUPER HAPPY! YOSH! Another fren fren added to my list! TT^TT I hope I can get along with them this few weeks! This is my first step getting closer on making frens~! Yosh hope lor! XD

MaKing up my Mind

2008-10-02T02:37:00.003+08:00

DG class, Pirated also namely as KH(his initial), the only eye candy that will make me survive in DG class.

I had almost get the chance to talk to him but totally Flunk it TT^TT. I was hoping that this semester, I could get guys frens more than girls coz I had quite phobia with making frens with girls already. They are so Phucking complicated. I had quite made some, at least for now.

It was quite a unbelivable chain reaction on this Tuesday, Life Drawing class. My target was trying all methods to talk to Pirated but all failed but at least I get other guys to talk with. >,< I don't want, I really do hope they dont hate me. I really almost got Pirated to talk to me, 1 cm close to talking but I missed that chance! Garrrghhh! >,
He is PPhucking duper bishi, mann. Lucky there's him in this DG class orelse Im dead meat! At least I can spent some of my time, analyzing and play with this object. Orelse everyday is a boring day in Illustration! NO BISHI AT ALL! They are super EMO people! XD Phuck I do hope they have no Future( Their mouth only knows how to talk, action I don't know, maybe some of them will do it)

I really really hope to have Pirated as my fren...>,< not boyfren(coz I know its another impossible thing XD) I rather stay one sideed forever! NO more Love love business coz I would really phucking hate that feelings!

Anyways here's a link to Mr. Pirated! XD Blue shirt guy! He loves primary colours, huh! XD

Well one last wish again. Hope I get along with the guys in that class and PLEASE PIRATED TALK TALK TALK! >< >< >< Ike Ike GO GO!

[A]: Orange day = happy day

2008-09-29T05:32:00.005+08:00

Quiet some time since my last post [Shel is the longest one not posting up anything recently]. Last two/three days ago, I almost got fever, but managed to overcome it before it turns into serious fever by making myself sweat to lose the heat...
When going shop i thought of buying orange for vitamin C, but didnt since I'm a lazy person to go out, stepping my feet out of the car XD

So yea, talking bout oranges, OwO SHINHWA's colour is ORANGE (the colour of their balloons, like DBSK is RED, SuJu is Sapphire Blue etc) and cos of that most of my things i can see i will change it to orange [my phone wally is orange+the themes] hahaha yes my obsession is STILL Shinhwa [I wonder how long will i like Shinhwa...? =w="] I'm sorry to say this but... Shinhwa seems to come first. If there's Shinhwa concert I sure want to go...and I WILL NOT BRING YSC to their concert XD i'll just bring shel.

Next time if i got free time i should post my reasons Why i like Shinhwa and reasons to like them...it's a must to LIKE them XP. They are LEGEND~

Clip of shinhwa during their 9th album photoshoot. they are super funny to begin with XD The funny part...alomost everything is funny~ ok, the funny part[to me] when Dongwan and Andy photoshoot. Dongwan sits on Andy and Andy got mad. Then when Eric wants to make friend with one of the staff's son...he was the only one kena ignored hahax

oh yea...enough bout Shinhwa...for now...
hmm raya is comin' in just one or two or three more days XD
i've been busy with cleanin' but last few days i was lazy that i still didnt clean 1st floor [that's the bad thing bout having 2-storey house...] i guess i'll hav to clean it by today afternoon or tomorrow early morning... no choice.
I've been doing some baking with my sis also...XD always hijack the kitchen when my mum isnt around. I've succeeded making carrot cake and cream puffs.

Currently listening: If you love her, let her go - Andy [polaroid musical]

Something not related
=> Shinhwa is the best!!! XD hmm... At first i like Minwoo[the time that i dont know shinhwa, i thought minwoo's name that time is Junjin XD ]. After i know shinhwa through Andy in his show "we got married", i like Andy, then starting to like shinhwa i do "research" so i like Hyesung...then eric, then Junjin, then Andy,then Dongwan...it's a cycle XD so overall I like all of them >w<

Ok better stop before Yeo kills me for i dont know what...=3=

Here is me and my fate

2008-09-20T21:47:00.002+08:00

Yea man today nice day, I got a group in Visual comm. and with familiar people. Lucky, orelse Im DEAD!

Anyways I had to go to Illustration dept to get my Form about changing major and stuff. Lip Wei my perspective tutor took it, the original piece nya. Aish so I had to walk all the way there and ring the DAMN doorbell again which is crazy de, sometimes work sometimes dont. Yet again my fren betted that I would see Wolf which is yea but he was at the back talking to someone. Later on he did opened the door for us since we were told to use the other door but it was locked so we had to went all upstairs again. Wolf asked us What was it I want and Who was I Finding in a very angry way, scary O__O! >__
Then After that I waited till like I wanna die there then LW came and apologized. Ahh made me a relief. He's a good guy Ow
Oh and then We had meeting with Dick and chicken breast, after that Chicken breast gave me coupons to MC XD so yea our next destination to lunch is MC! Then I was curious if Wolf had already left his dept. So I said out loud" Hmm is ** still upstairs". Then there he was at KK mart buying Ice cream AGAIN. Die lah him, gonna have diabetes. The worst part was I rush to him at the ice cream box(that was really close to him >__<) and lean towards the place that he was targetting his ice cream at. OMG My brain was not working properly then, he kept saying he was broke. DIe lah him.

Well thats alll the story and I found another bishi called Jonathan XD! yea man! this month is the Bishi month!

Realizing the Truth

2008-09-19T02:10:00.006+08:00

I had to admit I might fall for Wolf but its just temporary, I will try and lessen my feeling for him coz in the end I would be the one who gets hurt again. I wont be that stupid as last time again. Thinking that I still have a chance which is a Hilarious Joke.

I had realized this just by today, the most clearest answer ever. Dick msn me telling me that Wolf had a new gf then I was actually moved abit but pretended that nothing was wrong but actually my heart did react abit. Then when Dick said he was joking I felt a relief. It was really wrong because everytime I did say I hate him and I don't want to see him anymore but in no attempt I still see him whenever I said that I don't want to see him. I hate to lie about this but truthfully sometimes my leg just stubbornly walked towards the area where the probabilty of meeting is more. Then I realize that it was stupid, I am just doing the same hurting things over and over again.

I meet him today in Ming tian, its hard to believe he had change so much and made my heart moved once again. He tilted his head to look at me like saying "yes?" coz I was looking at him unexpectedly coz I was just trying to make sure was it him. It made me laughed alittle coz of that cute expression. I had a bet with my fren who was with me that time, saying that he would cross by our table which I said it was impossible. Then it happened, I tried to run away to not believe it so I eyed his plate of rice which soon he realized I wasn't lookin at him but his rice so he covered my view from it by blocking his plate. I was like "huh?"

Ahh and I'm finally in Digital animation class, Hope I can cooperate well in that class. I really love to learn more things there. Better than the last one I was in, that is, Illustration. I finally realize that what Dreams and reality are not the same thing. Thats why I choose Reality, Dreams will make your future go crap. All I have to say is I do hope that chilli Norah would face their fate one day......and suffer in a way that I would love to see.(Im evil as ever)

I know things that I said to other are gonna happen to me one day too so Im upto take the challenge. Im not hot headed and I won't be, I swore on this day that the decision I made will not make me regret.

So the truth is revealed even now my head is still full of Wolf. I can't lie about that, maybe coz I think the personality that he had changed now made me feel like, he's not bad at all when it comes to socilizing but not yet there. XD This is some serious post I have posted today huh >w
ba gotta go sleep need to wake up early again in the morn to get ready for my new class. PLEASE everything goes on well......I hope....TT^TT

[A]: My 1st day outdoor after many months...=w=;

2008-09-18T22:06:00.007+08:00

So long since my last post...well not really.

So today is my first time going out after many months of hibernating in my house. Hunting down what goods to buy for preparation of raya celebration.

Start off with me waking up at 9am [I signed my alarm at 7.30 but I off it and continue sleeping] cos feels so sleepy after waking up at 4.30am. First thing my mum said is "so early you wake up..." -she's mocking me...T____T cos she wanted to go tamu[market] in Tutong, and I'm supposed to wake up early so we can arrive there early. BUt at least I didn't get scoldings in the mornin.

Arrived at the tamu at 10 somethin'...and the first thing I saw was two roosters in cage, they are for sale. Then I saw the cutest thing that day... HAMSTERS ^w^ I didnt count how many of them but they are so cute...gwaah. But i didnt get to touch them cos they were in a glass box T____T Next to the hamsters are some green birds ...i think they are parrots, cos i didnt stay long at that area and the hamsters distract me so much XD and I kept askin' my mum to buy one for me, but of course she rejected it.

Then we went to the flowers section...the tamu is not really divided into sections but somehow to make it easier...whatever, i dont know how to explain it. Maybe next week I will go take pics of that place and the hamsters if they are still there.

So at the flower section, today is my historic day...cos it's my first time seeing a REAL rose with of my eyes...XD i can smell its scent. There are some other flowers i rarely see everyday. I saw lavender, some small cute cactus and flowers with weird names like there's one i ask my mum to buy [but she didnt buy it] called "bunga pukul lima" [5 o'clock flower] - roughly translated XD cos the flower will bloom at 5 pm... i want to see that if it is for real...maybe next week i go buy it haha

I spent 1 hr on the flower sections looking at flowers XD...and so cos of that my interest in flowering and plantation might grow after this day. I want my own flower base [not for now though cos i know it needs planning and this year i have to concentrate in A level]

Probably I'll start with next year after my big exams...i'll plant the flowers and make them live [cos many of my mum's flowers are dying...she doesnt take care of them properly XD] - she'll kill me if she read this.

Then at the store, i saw Hamster's cages...and ask my mum to buy one along with the real hamsters i saw at the tamu, but didnt again. XD I kept asking for hamsters that she got pissed off, cos if i really were to get a hamster, she'll be the one taking care of it cos i will be at school XD

So I hope next week I get to go to tamu again and take pics... but what I don't like if i hold a camera is the people will be starring at me O////O *embarrassing* and i might get shoo-ed for taking pics illegally XD like that is illegal, it's not im stealing.

Something not related

=> MY mum made new friends at the pertama store...and how they know is when they ask where is my mum's kampung...and after that i kept hearing my mum's kampung name being shouted many times XD well at least we got discounts for the curtains we bought.

Oh and at 2pm after finish buying the curtain, i checked my inbox got one message from bazilah. She sent me the message at 10.15am saying she was waving at me when at the tamu but i didnt see her...cos i was crossing the road...XD sorry baz for not seeing you and for replying your message late.

That always happen, when my friends message me i tend to reply them[or not replying at all] quite late from the time i received it...cos my mobile is always left somewhere. I ignore my phone most of the time...haha. I'll check it when i remember to check it XD

Sorry to those who always receive my messages late. i didnt mean to even though it sounded like i mean it but i dont.

My post is long so i better stop plus this blog got something, i dont know what.

So I'm off~

Everyone changes in the end

2008-09-11T21:07:00.003+08:00

Well yea I got seperated to a class with lots of Losers....no lah, they are good in their artistic way but not in their attitude. The Lectuerers are crap too...They are all crappy. And I think my room is either invaded by rats cicak or worst.....cockroches.....O___O""" coz I saw a fast moving black brown thing beside my comp and was unfound. Oh crap...I DONT WANNA LIVE WITH THEM!!!

Well anyways I was invited by Jelly to a dinner in our College TOA coz she had one of her works exhibit. So as I Siew Cheng is to help them eat part of the food and thats all. Worst to that I met that stupid Wolf again. I actually met him in the morn but I didnt noticed him coz I was concentrating on my DSL. Then Later on at that dinner I kept avoiding him till I got caught at the bucket of sour limau kasturi drink, everyone was drunkin themself with that drink coz IT ROCKS! I was one of them too.

When I was waiting fer the waiter to refill the bucket of Limau drink, WOLF actually purposely push his own glass down the bottom of the refiller. He already got quarter of it! Celakak! So I was pissed so I took both glass but at last I just refill one of my glasss Really FUll! XD Then He drank finished he came back for another glass, then the childish game begun, I was pissed again so I drank my glass in full speed and refilled another glass, he was laughing like shit!(Mwahahha I WIN XD) Then he asked Jelly wat major were we in then she said " Siewcheng Same as You"....that statement is just too.....T___T"" phucked up. The I said " Oh I wanna chage to Digital Animation" Then he said " Oh got future, got future".

Then When i heard that sentense it feels like he is tryin to mock me....>,
Chilli and Neko are the same type : They Dont know how to continue the joke of other but rather they create their own...which is known as COLD in a way.

Well anyways Wolf performance changed my point of view of him again, he is just like a big bro to us XD. Oh yea I forgot I shooed him when he was slowly refilling his drink, then he was like " oh oh !" Omg I feel like I evil.....XD I AM! MwAHHH!

No always equals Yes

2008-09-05T19:50:00.002+08:00

Well went back and came back with more nice and happy memories, XD. We are gonna promote IDEAL in Brunei soon...XD. Anyways Wani the beansprout is beginning to sprout(at last...XD 0.333333....is still not enough and you know that wani TwT). Shel is still the happy and cheerful kid and has not yet change her Glomp and hug attacks.

The 3rd semester is gonna start soon so I will try my best to keep this blog alive. This semeseter is gonna really hit me hard in the head again. Chilli and Norah is in my class....both having the same old personality, Show offs,Hidung tinggi and all sorts of things that a rich girl princess would have but so I have to admit that I might be crush by them. Anyways I will try as much as I can to stay far and talk less to them....hope so. They are, yes, great artist which I admit it truly their skills are far from my reach but I will try and strive hard in this line of death.

Bah I dont wanna talk about my next semester which I think it will be really crappy without my last frens...TT,TT.

OKay Now talk about my life of being back again, It's crap. I keep seeing Wolf. The second day Im back and I met him in the main block of college, we were having my fav tapau by fren aunt on the corridor. We sat there and ate coz we were REALLY HUNGRY(ha after coming back to malaysia again, I start to starve). He came up and I was eating speghetti and waved to him, thinking that he would scram as soon as he see me do that(its common that he scrams when he sees me and kena ignored, thats common). But this time he didnt, he stopped and walked towards us and asked why are we eating here so I replied cannot ah. Then suddenly the worst comes, Fren started to shout "EHHH both yer hair style the same"(and normal people would think the other way which is.....couple set up). Luckily I move fast and said "No way mine one more Bishi than his". And between that he actually wanted to say " Yea I wanna cut like hers wan..." but I cut in the My HAIRSTYLE is MORE BISHI than HIS.(XD yeah man)Then our conversation went on and in the convo he kept throwing spears and swords to attack me. T__T Then later that day I really sworn that I WOULD NEVER WANNA SEE HIS FACE APPEAR IN FRONT OF ME......like "F" that would happen.

Today again I saw him in McDonald with Puppy, I saw Puppy first which he pointed at me coz I was squeezing the Sos in my plate at a booth which is near their table. My fren, Jelly purposely took a sit at a place which They can see us and we can see them......T__T she's really doing unnecessary things. That was not all, we went shopping after that and at about 3 something we head home and went up the ascalator and my fren said "oi Wold ah" at that time I thought she was lying but it was true....he was riding on the ascalator goin down. T__T that was the most Stupid day ever....

So people things that you dont wanna see or happen will always turn out the opposite....aish. T__T Bah Anyways I think I wont be able to see him that often after Next sem starts.

[A] : Out of boredom...

2008-08-25T15:44:00.004+08:00

Since Shel's last post, this blog is taking its holiday...so out of boredom I'm posting some stuffs...

I was finding pics of Junsu for Shel...since last saturday was her b'day [Happy b'day ah Shel XD ] I haven't given you anything yet...and the result from my searching
=> I've been saying this most of the time... Junsu really looks like Shel's bishie in school!!! [almost...90%, not 100% alike, only at some angle] Junsu more bishie of course XD

I found this pics of YOOCHUN...XD so bishie~ long time never check his updates

SO with that...I'm off~

Something not related
=> hmm...my [includes Shel] final exam is just 2 days form now...I'll have my Chem practical this thursday and physics practical on saturday. Then fasting month will start either this monday or tuesday.
So long I didnt upload any photos...maybe after my exams =___=

Wehai!!!

2008-07-29T14:09:00.002+08:00

Today not much things happened....bishie events??? Like Yeo??? Hmmm got different story though...this time the bishie, I don't really want to get all hyped up......I prefer to just play around but actually don't really take it seriously coz scared wah get hurt again like Yeo already toooo deep that it hurts her *right Yeo? oh well at least you have a loyal fan right???? Ow< hehehe heard about your beloved fan who never seem to foprget you.....eventhough you are way in KL....hahahahaha....anyways the dance is finally over...yeah quite paiseh coz there was one part i forgot to turn when the others turned..oh well ...what's over is over......anyways......I also went to a pool party...nice nice...I got pushed in without knowing all of a sudden thanks to my friend who go and pakat with Caroline....Rachel....aish I will get her next time...hahahahaha

Ok got to go now coz Wani can't tahan her sphincter..going to pee in this lab if she don't go with me.....aish you see Yeo your parents are getting to old here can't be independent anymore..better come back soon your mummy here miss you.....ok bye have to help your daddy go toilet......P.S don't forget to give me your first salary like every daughter does to her mother..........and don't forget to bring some nice presents.....like birds nest and umm chiken essence and also some ginseng and pampers for your daddy....don't bring any magazine like porn for your daddy or else you will never see KL again......=P

G-dragon Obsession!

2008-07-28T00:57:00.003+08:00

No lah....Im still lOyal to Yunho, I didn't made a wally for Yunho, not because of losing intrest in him just that I haven't find any suitable pictures for Yunho. >,<>

But luckily I found one of the most cutest angelic an the one and only G-dragon HQ pics. >w<~! So I can't hold myself back anymore and Harassed that pic as soon as I got it! WAHAHHAHA! mann I sound perverted....=3=~

Anyways back to my story of today, Today is one of my freinds bday called Sweat (XD) well we went to Red Box( Karoke, it was said that this branch is the most famous among all since it has almost all song in it, yes All) Well today I was SUPER SUPER HIGH but I managed to make everyone laugh XD so it was Happy. I was the first one to sing, some chinese song and I DANCEd when it comes to SuJu's "U" but it ended fast since I can't sing it XD. Then Later on......Fuufufufuuuuuu TVXQ! "O", "balloon","Sky" and I forgot.....I danced my monkey dance! XD and not to forget "Siewcheng SOLO" WAHHAHA! everyone was rolling on the ground when I did that!

And I met a cute Bishi waiter XD, he was the one who is in charge of serving us.....I think he knew I was Lying my eyes on him XD. And then I was so high one time that I accidentally bumped into him (very hard...) and almost fell and he was in a rescuing posture.....XD but then I managed not to fall and he quickly walked out of the room. XD funny man and everyone was like WOOOOOoooO~! Lucky ehhh~!

Later on I can see that he was scared of me, it was like this:~ He wanted to tell someone something about the cost of the foods and so, at first he was looking at me, he stopped for awhile and turned to my fren beside him...and whisper into her ears....AWWWW! >,

Celakak....aish nvm anyways I had fun. Then my roommate also my classmate( Jelly) wanted to go watch "Kung Fu Hip Hop" and I wanted to watched that too since it kept advertising in the TV in the Karoke room. Then we really did watched it, at first I was really afraid that it would be sucky....but then it was rather nice XD The dancing is still good and not to mention the actions too....overall its worth wathching it.

And all to that we had to walk home at night about 9.30pm, that time. We were somehow stalked on our way home but luckily I was with my Fren. So it was a safe orelse I would be super Dead.

Ahh that's all, lastly my fren and I are starting to fall in love with hip hop and all sorts of dancing styles! And we wanted to learn dancing just near our college but problem is......money and Wolf is there....>,<>

Lastly....uhh the original pic of GD wally is not that pale....OMG he looks like ZOMBIE!

But anyways we wanna try and see how much it cost tomoro or on Tuesday.......ahhhh....I wanna dance.

Things u wanna see Disappears,Things that u dun wanna see Appears

2008-07-26T16:36:00.002+08:00

Yup that's the world we are all in now, It goes the opposite way. Well why I said that is because..., There is something outrageous and Impossible even for me to believe it! >,<. There's a law of attraction if you really do believe in it and know how to use it.

Today super Weird things happened, I saw 黑马王子 and Wolf.........I do think that I was in Dreamland that time. Anyways it all happened like this:~

In the morning, my roomate had a meeting at 11am in college and I was lazy to wake up so I told her to go first, I will be there later. Then as so the usual me, I continued sleeping and slept till 12, she messaged me and I woke up and realized that I was still in my bed. Then I quickly changed my clothes and brushed my teeth(I still am a Healthy teenage girl, kay). I went out and started to travel to college in a daze. When I reached there, we strolled in the library for a moment and went downstairs. Then in front of college, we were yet again deciding on what are we gonna eat for lunch. We walked the alleyway(pic shown before in Previous post, go check it, if you dunno). Then we saw "Hei Ma Wang Zi" our newly found Bishi lecturer(the Sunway lagoon incidet lec), He has a celeb looking face(really no kidding). He knew us but we were afraid that he won't response to us when we greet him so we ignored him and saw him walking in the restaurant 面对面(pic will be shown afterwards) its pronounce as " Mian Dui Mian". At first we decided to go to that restaurant and eat but we went to "Vision Art"(art material store) and bought somethings. Then later on we went to that restaurant.

When I opened the door(note: I didn't wear my glasses) I saw a Bunch of black shirt guys....I took a glance and They were Like STARING at me, I ignored them and move my eyes away from them to find seats. When I reached closer, I saw my this sem tutor "WLF" a fat happy plump guy(who is better in teaching than Wolf) and Wolf's bro. Then I had a itch of feeling that Wolf is there too....and he was the guy who was Staring at us when we came in. My fren saw everything and she started to tell me someting ......out of my imagination. She said Wolf was acting cute when we came in like Looking at us with his mouth clenched. I was shaking all over. Then at the other side we saw "Hei Ma wang zi" eating alone in his white shirt! XD So cute!

When the BLACK DUDEs finish their lunch they stood up and came our way. Wolf was looking at us the whole while when heading towards us. I had a urge to say "bye bye" since in a normal way of what I call "fren", we usually will say "byebye" or take a response when we see someone we know, right.... So at last I took up my courage and said "bye bye" and turned away as quickly as possible. But as usual He only STARED at me.....and didn't even response. Next was "Hei ma wang zi" in a different way as what Wolf treated us, He was the one who took response first. He greeted us, in a CUTE way XD, sticking his tongue out.....OMG! XD funny!

Okay that's all I guess, My fren and I planned to draw a comic about this short story....XD stay tune for it, I hope lar.

I'm Fine...after Yunho Theraphy! XD

2008-07-26T01:43:00.003+08:00

Oh yeah Im back in Business with Yunho again! XD After watching hundread roles of Yunho-oppa in the Ride On performance! People say its too sissy but for me IT's ART! OMG See the Body Flow man, its super Sexy! XD

Now is currently watching Star King, Suju and Big Bang! XD So cute! Anyways I can't help that I....have not forgotten Wolf yet. ><>,
It's always when I was almost about to forget him, he appears in front of me again....T__Tx!

Anyways I'm gonna go Karoke with my classmates on Sunday, one of my classmate Bday. XD First Time Im gonna go Karoke....In a Actual Big KAROKE room..No You don't have to put tokens inside to pick songs.....

And here's some piccies to upload XD since its a long Time I neve POST any Pics! XD First is a photo that I had taken in my roomate's room 1) Postcards made by the two of us,assignment use(bet u know whose one is whose) ,2) A chibi form of our neighbour just some blocks away from our street and us(his name is DICK ) XD yes its his real Name ,he is also name as the Good Guy!or Sunny or Rain(remember the Sunsilk ad "nama saya Rain")
here's a self obsessed me in the Fitting room, Fitting on a 100 dollar ++ shirt! XD

How life has been.....

2008-07-22T14:33:00.002+08:00

Hmmm....I don't know about my kids and husband but all i know is that life now is so confusing and scary.....as well as weird and fun at the same time....Yeo I hope you are ok.....when are you coming back again? You know I FEEL REALLY SAD COZ i haven't got to chat with Yeo and Wani online together....how really wish I have internet at home...the e-speed wan not the pay with time wan.....it's so hard you know.....(sigh) I miss you Yeo........i miss the times in school when you always do something crazy and scare me....and make fun of me....I know you have probs at KL and you are finding it hard...don't worry....we are here for you...we always keep you in mind....and heart....can't wait for you to come back.......I really miss you yeo....

There's this guy who reminds me of you so much except that he is a guy and he is considered bishie to me....hahaha but the hard thing is he is so hard to talk to....he is always online but today he is busy and said he will be back but untill now he hasnt said anything....until now only his bro hahahhaa
anyways yeah just dropping by since long time hven't at all.. i wish i have ine=ternet man ..........

[A]: Happy + Sad day for today

2008-07-21T19:53:00.006+08:00

To begin with...last night, eh sorry...last last night, Saturday, I slept late at 1am just to do this [see below]and of course chatting with Yeo...

Editting some old random photos...there are photos from kendo workshop, but I got no time to edit them...so maybe next time =w=

my sis when at airport [when sending my dad umrah ]

My never-will-be-clean desk...[Yeo this is my desk ... one part of my room XD cos you always wanted to see how my room looks like]

*I know~ I know...I'm obsessed with SHINHWA now ^w^

So today,early mornin' I didn't do any of my homework...and I didn't bring any books...not even one T____T I don't know what happened to me for today.

Things always happen in the afternoon, after class is over. I got maths P6 test, which I didn't do it properly -____-; that ended at 2pm. Off to Shel's class and went to library since there wasn't anything to do. Shel's wanted to go to the ICT lab but it was closed I think...and I don't really like the library cos there are these things you called RULeS...and plus the ICT lab, here I'm referring to the computer...it really piss me off, don't wanna say bout it.

At 3pm, I have to leave Shel alone...I went to club meeting in room 128 but they changed to 26B so on my way to room 26B, passing the room 107, where there was I call free food but that also changed to room 104, so passing room 104 I saw someone I know,[the meeting in room 104 starts at 3.30...but when I passed there around 3.20] so I opened the back door to look...well yea...there were smell of raw fish...[free food I'm saying is sushi]. Momo-san was in there too [I thought MOmo won't come]...so I just went in for a little while[cos I have to go to my other club meeting in room 26B...I know it's confusing] Momo was talking to me (probably since I just entered the room)...saying something bout the food from Escapade and of course I didnt reply a single word >///<
After few min I left the room and went straight to room 26B [which is downstairs...] I stayed at room 26B, the meeting for only 5-10 min then i asked permission to go out [which is kinda hard cos the president of the club is a bit scary - to me - cos she asked why I want to go out...so so]

So straight I went again back to room 104 thinking that the sushi would be eaten up by that time...so I can just grab one piece and go back to room 26B...but they haven't even started the eating T________T; cos they were waiting for two other member before we all start eating...which means I have to wait there and can't go back to room 26B-since I would have to go up and down. So when everyone was there[except one guy] we all begin eating. It was Japanese food, so there are chopsticks...and I took mine, and have to detached the chopsticks apart...everyone chopsticks were detached except for me and hazwan...and he asked how to detached the chopsticks...I was struggling too cos in my mind I afraid I might break it instead of detaching it...at last I managed to do so [cos Momo was looking at me so for me not to embarrass myself I have to detached it somehow]

Begin with the sushi eating...I took my first bite on salmon [I think cos it looks like one]. First thing...phew the smell of fish >___< not really my liking. They were all dipping in the black liquid [which I think it's the soy sauce]...I was gonna dip my raw fish in it [cos I saw Momo dipped his on that liquid] but ahh didn't do it also...I ate 3 pieces only cos can't stand the smell...I'm not being picky but it's just not my kind of food. To get rid of the fishy smell I drank 2-3 cups of coke...and I got stomach ache after drinking that @___@ carbonated drinks are not also my kind of drink...I do drink them but not often. So I just sat down drinking...One senior sat next to me...she also didn't eat much. Then Momo was saying to her..."eh eat somemore..."
Then I thought he won't say anything to me...but Momo did...even called my name...^///^ saying something bout eating somemore but I didn't hear it properly T.T

Then at 4pm I have to go to room 26B again...went in for like 5 min and the meeting ended TxT||ll ehh...wasting my time..I could just stay at room104 and enjoy my time with Momo...>w<

Went out of room26B, I was thinking whether I should go back to room 104 to help with the cleaning or something but since I escaped my other meeting so I just have to ignore that...oh feels bad too cos I have to help with the cleaning too since I ate some sushi...but on the other hand I feel bad cos not attending the other meeting and I'm always wanted by the president so yea it confuses me on which club I should gives my priority to... @___@;

And so so...the time is already 10pm...and I have many homeworks to do. Better be off now...
And also today I got the news that one of my classmates, his mother passed away in a car accident last saturday... [Al-fatihah]

Something not related:
=>Last saturday was Momo's last day for training...so yea...the happy element is vanished for now...bye bye flying squirrel. And This saturday I'm doing something on the stage...performance TwT

眼泪。。。

2008-07-07T20:21:00.002+08:00

这是我在TOA第二次哭了。还是在toilet哭，真是丢脸。。。我在课室已经是很想哭了，好才没露出我这个丢脸的样子。没跟朋友说因为不想让他们当心。我比起我班上的人，我是就没用的一个。今天又遇到那个笨蛋左右，看到我们很想看到陌生人，应该就有我在他眼里是个陌生人了吧。我觉得因该是那个女学生吧，应该是在交往，笨蛋一个。我应该是想太多了吧。。。。TT^TT没想到我还对那家伙念念不忘。。。>,<真是个傻瓜。

我不懂我还湖一呆倒计时。马来考试真的真的让我觉得我自己跟没用、老师帮了我可是还是没用。现在满脑都是那个笨蛋白痴左右。

WAH first time used chinese in this blog. Just wanna try out the google chinese toolbar....kinda cool OwO! okay try and find out what the hell am I saying above XD! Over and out!

Shit Happens

2008-06-28T19:46:00.002+08:00

Was talkin crap about Love Love with Shel in the Cbox and I've a think about it and what partly said by Shel was right too. Aish I have been hurt so many times too and I think my heart will slowly hardened and close up by itself slowly, of course. I've still not yet overcome my grudge towards Neko but I am trying to just go back to our normal days in 1st sem.

Saw Wolf today....and as my fren told me earlier Don't say "hi" to him again beacuse I didn't get any response from him last time but out of conciousness my hand and mouth just move by itself and this time Even Worse....HE JUST WALK PASSED ME, NOT EVEN A GLANCE, NOT EVEN A HI, NOT EVEN A RESPONSE, NOT EVEN ANYTHING! Before that I saw SS and luckily he response so I was kinda relieved(thanx SS even though it seem like u are Terpaksa wan...but shows tat u are a good person). Then Next he keep goin out and in the Main entrance.....>,<><............but nevertheless I still can't erase this stupid Heart thumpin and beatin of mine towards him...><.

I really do hope that I could see what He sees....I really do wish that. Luckily Neko didnt know this incident even though she would say "no LAR" in a sacarstic and innocent way buy I know she would be Happy and so so inside. I do wish sometimes....I could....just be a guy....It would be more easy huh( Dun worry I still 100% like guys) just that I see that guy's has less Fren Fren Problems and Love Love problems....

Just wish that sometimes I could just see him and do the normal "hi hi" thing and that's all I want now. Just noticed that he started to ignore my Hi fer the past two weeks only the last sem....he always tease me and so.......O___O So I really had no idea WHAT THE HELL HAPPENED! I really had no idea at all....and I am super Fraustated and somehow sad. Even as a student teacher respect, I would be okay with that. I called other lecturer and they responded...........................by their name....

And that's the 2nd thing I've realized, I've always call him "Sir" even SS, I called him by his name. So......maybe coz he hate me coz I never use his name.....T__T not sure.... but I did it only once...that is the time when I had his last class and I REALLY wanted to take a pic of him and others...and I got to caught up and excited, I called out his name. Then I had a prove that, He smiled at that moment I called his name(T__T its a maybe again) I don't have the pic coz Neko has it, and yea she won't give it to me.

I do hope eveything goes back to normal soon....I really don't want to see HIM again....to let me forget him at least....>

this is the day........

2008-06-26T00:56:00.002+08:00

So yeah this the day that i will post something for the last time and yeah i can't chat with anybody anymore coz of some problems la.......

Anyways camp was really great......i tell you youth camps really help you make your holidays worth it and fun to endure rather than just sleeping around all day nothing to do....especially when there is no internet at home...I really thank God for Fatin, she is very kind all helpfull even her parents.........just wish i could repay her someday......

Anyways just getting to know that my emotions are not that unstable but rather much more matured than before ahahaahaahha.............

Seriously! I mean like even though i play with guys who i think is considered a bishie doesn't get all hyper and happy at all......for example when in camp.....my leader Joel who just came back from US played with the group some game called bucket balance, it requires everyone to lie down flat on the ground and each must slowly balance the bucket without getting up with their shoulder.....i was next to him and i didn't feel anything.....another example is when jr wrote on my hands when is just walked towards him.....it's like nothing happened....i mean even though i kena kacau and lots of stuff happened yet i don't feel anything...i guess the hurts that has happened, caused my heart to hardened and close up......owh well i guess it best that way.....hahahhaahahahahaha

Anyways just wanna say
lots of stuff but tired

Seriously Disappointed

2008-06-23T00:54:00.002+08:00

Neko is really pissin me off last week but now I tried to Decrease my anger towards her and so I did.

I ignored her for about 2 or 3 days and of course all normal people would know Im angry, soso. Her Acting of Cutey Cutey has kinda Increased during the pass few days so it kinda made me Pissed coz its Annoying and so does everyone think. Only she herself think its Cute(as for what Yeo's Love love Dictionary writes: Lack of hookin up guys) While of course, I, =3= pro lar....Mwahahahha!(kiddin lar).

And so yea almost getting over with Wolf coz I've found out his true identity that is LIKES Beautiful girls also known as Bishoujo. Aish and I thought he was different which is nahhh.....sucks. But of course even though I blab so much about him like this and that, I still need time to get over this Thumpin and Bumpin Heart business towards him =__=!

Ahh like what Jelly said "there are still alot of Good Guys around this world" XD! What so ever anyways This week= LOADS of ASSIGNMENTS and PROJECTS! >,<>,
Aish bah bah I better get goin....gotta do my Letterforms! and LOTZa Hw to rush....me gonna DIe!

[A]: 14th June.08 - Saturday

2008-06-16T15:53:00.000+08:00

14th June.08, saturday, training day, meaning another Momo story >w< [I didnt post on the night of 14thJune cos was too lazy to do so...]

Let see~ I hope I dont miss anything nice...
Morning I see momo in green bushes[his t-shirt i mean...he wasnt wearing uniform]. Lunch time me eat alone, 12.20pm I went for meeting then 1pm went to phy lab. Teacher said we would finish at 2.30 but he stopped class earlier at 2. So I got off from class and went outside of library where Momo and the others were. At 2 something I saw Momo and the boys departing...we were still standing cos my friend was talkin with her friend and that was when Momo-san waved to us...like a signal that it was time to go to gym. Going to gym...Momo was at the very front of the line[we werent walkin in straight line cos of big gaps between the guys and us but almost like one...whatever] so i said to my friend that Momo was like a mother duck and we were the ducklings walking behind him >w< wahhaha

Then when I arrived infront of the gym entrance, I saw momo first... but he wasnt in green but white, I thought "eh...did he changed to his school uni?" but actually that was his keikogi, that time he was wearing black trousers[school uniform], so from the back [I was at the back of him since he was facing the main door] my mind thought of something but I couldnt recall it...suddenly Momo said,"then I become a sushi maker..", ah that was the word I wanna say "sushi maker",he really looked like a sushi maker ^w^ Then me and my friends go to one side...the boys on the other side but not far. One time I heard one guy said,"...if infront of the guys only it's ok but there are girls here.." So I was curios what was that about...so I turned to Momo[my friends also looked at them], but Momo said,"eh...don't look here ah~" I realised that he actually wants to change his trousers to hakama...T___T [I should take a peek...haha kidding. Im not a pervert la]

WE were waiting from 2 - 3.30 pm since the teacher thought we gonna use the gym at 3.30...so between that time~
Momo was in his gi hakama, one time my friend got a call from her friend, while she was talking, Momo askes who was that, she said her friend, then Momo was joking, "ah your friend...[i cant describe his tone but was really funny]'Hello baby~ I miss you...'" It was just funny...>w< then maybe cos momo was teasing her, she gave her mobile to momo, he took it, "hello..who is this?" there were many things happen but I'll just cut the story. Then after the phone calling done, I asked my friends what happened. She said her friend that called her like sempai, so she was teasing her friends in the phose saying that sempai is the one talking on the phone when actually it was Momo...something like that.

Then 3.30 the teacher arrived and gave us the gym key...do the warming up, training and lesson of the day was footwork,the basic. All of us do the footwork...Momo was teaching the teachers in charge the footwork, I guess he actually wanted to join the fun >w< but he cant haha...

The nicest part of the day lesson was the "Warzone" thing...in a group of 6, I was in Momo's group...haha but that was nothing, the point of the game was to hit the other person in the other group, 6 vs 6, one end to the other end, we have to run and also kiai[can only stop the kiai if we reached th other end, and cos of that Momo got voice crack when talkin after that] My stamina isnt good so I almost lost my breathe... The warzone we did are because we are gonna do that again during the workshop [20-22 june]

Training was over at 4.50, we gather before going home, since that day was the last day we train with sempai...our last day seeing him will be on the first day of workshop. Arigato gozaimas sempai!!![dont forget to come and visit us >w<]

Then my dad picked me...T__________T when my dad picks me, he always come on time and I cant stalk...but when my mum picks me, I have time to stalk but then I would be the last person at the gym alone...scary~

Story ends-...

Last day.......

2008-06-14T19:06:00.000+08:00

Senpai.....the teacher of Kendo club...a bishie to me..yeah....um.....this thursday was the last day for him to teach me alone.....others can still see him at the workshop......but i will be at the camp......eh wani you know the pic the wan you said was bishie actually was taken by me....hahahahhaah (kambang ehehehe)

Yeah just waiting for the pics from dean.....and then i will edit and then you can see...kkkkk =)

[A]: Thursday 12th June

2008-06-13T21:36:00.000+08:00

REVENGE...TwT

Candid...>w< [Shel took, not me] I saw his blog, he upload my pic so in return I also upload his pic...[haha evil me]

Irresponsible of him for not throwing his can in the rubbish bin...left it just like that...aih~

I'm not purely evil...I'm so good to upload some photos(below) he took using my camera [me and Shel used his camera at that time - exchange]

TRAINING GROUND (every Thursday)

As you can see...on every Thursday the gym doesn't belong to us, so we train at the corridor where there are always people pass by.

...? =____=
*Don't try this at home...?

PHOTOS TAKEN BY SHEL

=>some pictures...click for larger view...I have to modify some of them to save up some space

have to go for now [the time now is 12am]...my maths homework not yet done =w= even though tomorrow last day of school but teachers won't just let the students have some rest. And I wonder what's gonna happen tomorrow OwO...

One Night Qing Ren

2008-06-13T21:31:00.000+08:00

Pictures taken yesterday.

Kitten which was abandoned by its mother and was found by one of my male classmate. He asked me if I could take it in, of course I said yes but problem was my Landlady. She was phucking Afraid of cats which I think it might be a LIE even though she's a christian....(I thought she would help it or so) Anyways forget about that.

I took it in for one day (lucky the landlady allowed just for one day). My house was the nearest to College so I had to tumpang it. At first I was pissed off by it coz it kept running away.....and I had to catch it(note I had to head all the way from college to my house just to feed it....so i was really fraustated coz I had class afterwards...)

And then yesterday night I came back it was back at the side of the longkang again...guess it jumped out Again....but luckily this time was at the side. The last time I had to crawl under the STUPID FULL OF SHIT LONGKANG...seriously, it was full of shits...

Then lastly I sat in the compound....and tried to calm it down and so it did. And later on came to know me better and followed me everywhere. I almost spent an Hour outside the house just to accompany it. Later on I quickly took it to my room and put it in the toilet. The landlady then pop her head out of her room....asking about the cat. I thought she would say throw it out but luckily after a few minutes of convincing her, she allowed me to take it for One Day.

So later on I found out that Kittens....are Toilet Trained.....since the day it was born unlike puppies, they shit all around the place. And so I had to wake up all night to take care of it.....
Plus it keeps sucking up on me so I had no choice but to let it sleep with me. First on the leg since I had to do homework, then later on it crawled beside my leg, then more later on it slept in the hole of my legs when they were crossed. Lastly me myself cannot tahan so I slept on the tilam(half folded= better then sleeping on ground) Then it crawled on my tummy..and slept there so Finally both of us slept for 5 hours and My phone alarm rang. For the first time we both woke up...then when it stopped ringing we went back to sleep again. For the second time it rang......I woke up and threw it aside(XD kidding lar). It was still sleepy so it went back to sleep again. Till I did finish my laundry and sat down and start to do my half finished hw. It started to crawl back at me and slept on my lap.....so so.

Then bla bla bla I had to bring it to college today since somone is gonna adopt it. Went to class with it and everyone Fuzz about how cute it is. Neko think she is the Queen of neko...........which it bleh.....=__=. But lastly Kitten left everyone and stuck up to me again. I was eating and drinking while everyone was fuzzing about it. I slept on my lap till the person who wanna adopt it came. And story ends.

I pretty sad that I who is gonna major in Illust still sucks at Potrait Drawing. And is even more pissed with Neko.....Ahh forget about it....Concentrate on myself first.

Bah lastly IM SUPER SLEEEEEEPY so yea next time.

Not a word....

2008-06-11T19:59:00.000+08:00

A normal day with normal things coming forth and so. My fren Chilli I will upload her pic tomoro or afterwards(As I said before she's the Flower in our class and a talented person)and Wolf saved her yesterday coz of the stupid Promoters keep blocking her way....and she sends help signal to wolf(and I always thought Chilli was a strong girl) And Wolf ended up helping her( ahh guys can't resist cute girls after all)....and they Talked...happily...in My One Gallery(ahhh....)

Maybe Im just too stupid that Wolf just thinks Only that my ACTIOn is interesting and an object to make his life interesting....and talkin to me is Out of the OPTION. He talked to many of my classmates but only me even Last Sem, he did the same too. I was always the left out; he comments on everyone work; he told what mistakes do they have but ONLY me, he will never come close. TT^TT I think no one would know how these feeling are. They will rather think that Im just to sensitive or so so.

But really he never OPEN his mouth and talk to me. For example today I thought I wouldn't see him today. About 7 something, almost dark and I still had to walk home. I went to ming tian ta pau and.....I saw a familiar back standing at the stall I always ta pau my food....HE was THERE(my mind was really blank and crap Im shaking...and I didn't realize it till later) I wanted to tap him at the back like what I always did to my frens but of course I can never do that, it would be so weird! So I slowly preyed him at the back and walked beside of him and said softly "belanja sir"(in my heart i was sort of confused and speechless....I was REALLY afraid) Truth is I really wanted him to talk to me first but........it never happened in the end...so I was wrong, he Do only talk to Beautiful cute girls...TT^TT

I looked at him walk away...still hoping that he would turn and look back....so so it never HAPPEN at all...sad lar( so what I had said before was true, I am curse, curse in Love).

I really do envy those frens who talked with him....really I do but I am only good when Im with my other frens....but I think I am just too....dumb to match his conversations.

I really do hope one day he could talk to me nicely...just the two of us....Hoping. ba that's all for now...Im really sleepy. Pics will upload later, maybe. (is totally fraustated on how Wolf treats me and everyone says that it is not True...what Im thinking is a NO NO!)

[A]: "Small but deadly..." - Episode 2

2008-06-08T21:30:00.000+08:00

My server was bad so I didn't do anything yesterday and I hope I don't forget what I wanna write bout, as usual, training ^w^
Oh by the way last 2 days, 6th June was Fifi's birthday so yesterday they did some surprise for him. So yea happy belated b'day.

I got no physics class at 1pm since the AEs are having their phy practicals...so from lunch I was free till training. Within that time I went to the bungalow with my sis cos she have to do some project discussion, I stay there to feel the cool air. Then around 2pm I saw Lemon coming to bungalow 3 [where I was with my sis] cos he waits for his kanojo. But I have to go at 2 since training starts a bit earlier, so when I turned to where Lemon sat, I just smiled since it would be rude if I just pretend I don't remember him anymore..I don't know what I was doing so yea go with the flow and go out straight. Bye bye Lemon >w<

So after that me and my friends went gym at 2.30pm and get changed. Lesson for the day was kiai (something like shouting). While warming up, have to practise kiai, each of us have to count one to eight twice...and I embarrassed myself cos when my fist time counting, the other side can't hear me so I have to repeat but I repeat too fast so somehow it sounds like I was not being serious >///< but second counting was better at least... =___= [even when I remember the counting incident I feel embarrassed]

After warming up, sempai asked us to sit in circle. Sempai said that we have to shout from our stomach not from the throat to practise our breathing, which I don't know how. Sempai kept complaining that we weren't loud enough, cos sempai teach little kids[ in form 1 or 2...are they even called kids?] and they are louder than us...[come on~ they are kids after all >w<]. If I have to shout any louder I will surely lose my voice...cos even yesterday I felt my voice cracking and have to drink honey.

Then after that each of us do combine strikes and the demo was done by Momo...kiai, movements, strikes at the same time, and when it was my turn I still can't do the do strike properly and did mistakes...aish~ so while waiting for all of us to finish Momo and the guys do self training. And in that time I saw Momo wore the bogu, the chestplate part. It took him like long time to wear it since it was not his size but still wanna wears it. And while wearing it, sempai said, pointing at him,"Today gonna practise do and he will be your dummy" >w< I thought "bad thing..." cos that means i have to face Momo face to face and hit him.

Sempai check whether the chestplate is ok on Momo and he hit him with the shinai, but MISSED the waist and hit momo's rib and OUCH...that surely hurts. So Momo was like in seiza posture with his head looking down, eyes closed and his face turns all red...I guess it really hurts him. So after checking many times we have to line up and train.

When my turn, my first time, yea...as I said, I'm not used to do strike so it missed and hit at the area lower than the waist. He was bending, in pain after I striked [sorry...>___<]. Second time....worse than my first....my friend said I hit on the RIB...and that hurts him more~ >_____________<; Small but deadly... [SORRY]

Then...after that, all my strikes went wrong...since I don't wanna hurt the dummy anymore,I lost all my concentration and hit...so everything was wrong and one time, I shout men instead of do...*embarrassing* >//////<

Well~ at least not me alone who tortured the dummy, even my friends and there's one guy I don't know his name yet, he is big size and so his force is stronger and he missed, instead he hit the dummy's RIBS, again so it REALLY HURTS... >w< sempai told that guy to control his force...but many times he missed and kept hitting at the wrong area...hahaha the dummy really got tortured. Sempai was teasing him,"Any last words...". Hope the dummy can still come to school tomorrow.

Then finished training so i wait for my mum to pick me up. Around waiting time...all of us waiting outside the gym...there's a public phone and it rang. One guy picked it up but no replies so he hanged up, but got another rang...so Momo asked him not to pick, he copied down the number...then the guy picked but no replies. Then again...ringing and they picked but still no replies. I was at the end to look for my mum's car and I can't listen to what sempai said at that time something bout phone ringing but no replies [sounds like ghost story]. Then everyone chow and left only me and my two friends but they went also. So left me until 5.20pm alone.

When I was alone at the gym...so quiet...and I remembered Shel said last few days got a girl kidnapped and something something happened...so I was scared to think it over and over again...and I have to keep my guards all the time...scary ah...but at last my mum arrived and got back home.

My post is way too long.... and I don't have any pictures for this post. So to not make it any longer I better stop now...haha.

It all turns out well, i think, hope...

2008-06-06T20:08:00.000+08:00

Well today was a bad day coz I can't finish one of my assignments for my project TT^TT (sorry Miss Candice). Will really Do my best in it! hope >,
Anyways I need to find something, an object that symbolizes "Chance"...>,< its hard huh...=__=. Anyways I do hope tomoro my Bishi cuz phone me and belanja me something to eat(TwT I will spend all he have....so evil). Tomorrow Indian Festival at MidValley and Im goin there to do research....for my History class. Means we have to talk to the Indians...and ask them questions...=__='' I hate asking questions.

Everyone said that Reis out Tutor is a Niang Niang Qiang means sissy when he talks...XD! So means Wolf is 100 percent better than him. Sweat saw him today at Ming Tian again wearing Black.

I found out that... I am actually a good thrower....(prove?) In the morning I was lazy to open the gate to throw my rubbish into the paper bag(dustbin was inside but no plastic bag) I aimed at it from inside and was distracted by a cat passing by so my hand just automatically moved by itself and "Pop" it went in the paper bag.....unexpectedly...O__O. I did this "Throwing" thing in school too and everytime it went in.....when there's not many people around I will get it in but if there's too many then I might Miss. So that's all from my Mysterious and special talent of mine, guess so XD!

And I've found out that my 013 senpai(name David) is currently chasing Chilli(the flower in our class and the top student in out class). Lucky I have Wolf already XD, 013 is a playboy anyways but nevertheless he's still considered as a Bishi. He kept giving lollipop to Chilli( Wow proves that he is a Pro Flirt) in a very cool way that is. And lastly He got a chance to find out her name and introduce himself to her...OMG (this shoujo manga is really coming to life! >w<) So interesting! Its Bishonen and Bishoujo Love story, mann! Ow
Okay Okay I better get on with my assignments now...Im so dead! >,
So many things to do tomorrow! >,<

And yea sorry no pictures! I will somehow pic the 013 senpai...XD

Edited:~

And so I found out that Neko-san had COPIED my style.....she really disappoints me...T__T Go her DA page and look at her DA icon and you will know what am I saying or just look at my DA page on one of her comments in my page. And u will find the "CUTE ver WOLF" kena copied.(refer to my photo of Mr Yongsui)

and here's Sweat's Fic of JJ and Yunho http://strawberrychoc.deviantart.com/art/First-Light-85899317

its really nice.

[A]: "Small but deadly..."

2008-06-06T14:31:00.000+08:00

*I don't upload any pic with my post this time cos I got no pic related to this post and even if there's maybe in the disk I burned and I'm lazy to search it. Maybe I'll edit this post when I want to upload some pics related to the training. Well I think I WILL SURELY upload the pic for Yeo to see... where our training ground and so on.

Today afternoon at 3 we got "bamboo blade" training >w< and every thursday not many will come to train so every thursday is the day where each of us get our mistakes corrected individually by sempai. I'm used to the men and kote strike [but not perfect yet] and today sempai wanna teach us the do strike. Explaining comes first and after that have to do it practically.

First try was wrong cos I pushed the torso and not cutting, and second try was better. Then when one guy member's turn to do the do, sempai told him to do it faster or else he will get hit and this guy really got hit back[but ofcourse not a strong serious attack]. Then when Shel's turn she didn't get the hit and the guy that got hit complained why only him. So the girl after Shel got light hit too. After the girl it was my turn, and I thought I would get hit too...so I do the strike faster that I lost track of my distance [distance is deadly important for a perfect strike] and...so my attack missed from sempai's torso, I landed the shinai too early that I hit, well cos of shorter distance I POKE his stomach, not hit but poked....and I think that hurts cos he checked whether the area I poked turns red or not =___=; [forgive me...for my mistake] and that's was when Shel said,"waah wan...you ah even small size but deadly..." T_______T then I thought too...maybe Shel got her point =w="

That was my second time hitting the wrong area. My first time was last last saturday, I think, at the gym when we have to do the kote. One of my strikes hit sempai somewhere on his left thigh, near to the important area [I don't want to mention what is the "important part"...you should know that T___T ] I know how sempai felt cos the other end of the shinai poked my stomach, according to Newton's third law "for every action there's an equal and opposite reaction". Well, the reason why I missed his wrist was because he slightly moved to his right cos he saw I did it wrongly and tried to stop me but failed until I reached halfway from my supposed to be my braking distance and at that distance I already poked the wrong area. [Sorry...] But that day was the most happiest day cos of the happy atmosphere...yea the atmosphere only.
I realised that the atmosphere is different on thursday than on saturday, thursday the atmosphere is a bit "cold" cos of not many people and saturday is "bright" so yea I like saturday better.

Now I know why I'm the "kill no evil" ones...Shel is "smile no evil" and Yeo is the "cover no evil" making it "Smile no evil, cover no evil, kill no evil" - it matches us... >w<

Something not related:
=> Momo didn't come training today...and Shel said Momo got scolded about responsibility thing[somehow cos we didn't hear properly what the conversation was about] hope momo isn't the type who easily have the "dark" aura. I guess Momo is just being childish... and I hope the scoldings won't stop him from coming training...cos the "bright" atmosphere won't just be bright without Momo [yea momo is one of the element for the bright atmosphere... OwO ]

Convo between Wolf and Kero XD

2008-06-06T03:48:00.000+08:00

It all started with this Pic(Done by me and others not including Neko-san coz she likes perfect things....T__T what a pain in the ass). So it all started like this:~

Kero:Nah Sun wukong and Nu mowang fight in Vegeland..=3=~.Dun worry Oringinal better if wanna cry then cry. XDDone by XXX,XXXX,XXXXXXXX and not me~ Im a good studdent war. OwO

(wolf is blur with internets.....that's what Kero thought at first, turns out that it was Kero's fault)

Wolf:aiyo, cant go to the site le, if can send me the pic la, k

(So Kero Fixed the link and Wolf smiled)

Wolf:hahaha, thank Q ~ looks cute le. who did one ?

(It was then Kero had a Heart attack lookin at the message, True Kawainess !>w< but of course Kero won't say such thing to Wolf so she....)

Kero:wah geng lah sir XD call this cute wah! XD you wear your specs or not.who did one ahh....hmmm(they sure kill me if tell....but =3=~)
Combination of sweat,angeline,cherri,Ilina and yea me.
U want more More Detail:
Makeups: Ilina+Angeline+Cherri+Sweat+ little bit me.
Wukong: monkey
Niu Remon-g: monkey too =3=~

(Wolf was confused on why so many people need to Harass on one work only)

Wolf:hohoho, why so many ppl complete one work ya? by the way, who is sweat ?

(Kero was pissed coz Wolf can't remember her frens....T__Tx so she..)

Kero:OMG sir! Sweat=Vinnie=Suet yee
T3T aish aish...remember your students arr, aih not your fault sir. People get older they tend to forget stuff easy =3=~(that's why spec also forget to wear)
Why so many people complete one work coz It's........................ FUN.

(Later then Kero realized that it was HER fault again.....! but hell she cares XD!)

Wolf: aiyo, how i know suet yee = vinnie = sweat o. Bside, i m still young lo, hohoho...

(Wolf was scared of beign OLD and he is OLD......., that is why Kero like, right....=3=~)
(Kero wanted to lengthen their convo but, she thought she might be a little too obvious so she stopped it)

Kero:Yealah my bad my bad(kena marah by sweat also,TT__TT). Aish why so many people so scared of "old" this word...fine lo you want young, young lah.
k lastly, Gambatte sir! Hope to see more of you works ^w^(Yea More WU KONG!)oh and tell SS to Gambatte too! XD

(Actually Kero didn't want to end the convo between wolf and her but she had too coz she might Die if the convo went to long and she had too many assignments to rush..)

This conversation might cont. so Stay tune next time XD!

Xiah Junsu.....one of the DBSK boys

2008-06-05T09:41:00.001+08:00

This guy is my taste....Yeo likes Yunho and Wani likes Yoochun.....
Sorry giys...i malas to upload today not enough time.....

2008-06-05T09:41:00.000+08:00

(s)

2008-06-05T09:20:00.001+08:00

Since I've never posted before....I just want to convey my thanks to Yeo (my daughter a.k.a ungrateful daughter who loves chasing fanged wolf and not her mummy in Brunei who she claims to be very unhealthy and black)and Wani for always reminding me to post something in this very nice blog that Yeo has created and filled...not to forget wani also lah...hehehe anyways since you guys always blog about bishies...I too want to blog something about my bishie....

Basically my bishie is not both their taste as mine is very ugly to their eyes.....however the sad things is he likes my friend in church and they both know that i like him (T_T worse thing that could ever happen in my life ) and i had to encounter them at the church camp almost all the time together (now i know how much it hurts to see your bishie with a girl you know) anyways.....yeah almost everywhere.....

Now my heart is trying to recover from the agony and yeah trying my best not to have a heated friendship with my friend.....(sigh) ....(SIGH)......T_T

And now I'm trying my best to look at other bishie.....perferbly a guy name Jr (not real name)

But i think he also likes her....(SIGH) ANNNNOYING!!!!!!!!!

Anyways just to tell that i cant always have pics or actually never...so yeah....

Until then
S)AY WYW

Wolf = Cute! >w<

2008-06-05T02:10:00.000+08:00

Formatted comp so....=3= Photoshop gone! My compy is seriously getting Old....TT^TT, hope it stays healthy.

Okay here's some photo I took, close up on the Main block of my college ^w^ on each of the stores. The KK mark(24 aka) and the Ice cream box where Wolf always buy his Tropica Lime+Vanilla ice cream! XD The other one is the BA GUA aunty store! of course obviously she sells Ba Gua(Ba Gua=Rou Gan= some roasted pig/chicken/..... made into sqaure chewhy thing) in the other meaning for Ba Gua is Busybody. The last one is actually the weather today, tried to pic the Rain but FAILED! >,<>

So I'm yet again in my SUper HAPPY MODE! >w<>,<>___<>w<. I was like staring at him when he walked pass by us THEN I noticed he was walking my WAY( actually wanted to ask me something about the pics that I posted in his Testi in Friendster) and My BRAIN REALLy REALLy CEASED that time even now I can't recall what I said or do in front of me that time!! >___<

Later on when we came back from our FOOD HUNTING. We saw him in Ming Tian eating.....LAKSA? X3 then my interest and obsession of food suddenly took place and Point at him and said "BELANJA!"(he was actually wanting to eat,so the chopsticks was held half way when I shouted) Then His chopstick move towards my way, like saying "nah". Then My andrenaline Boiled and was pumpin non stop inside, I really REALLy was going to move towards and eat it from his Chopstick! OMG, wth am I thinking >, <

Then We came back down again to print something and met them again this time Puppy ordered Asam Boi(my favourite which is very expensive and I can only drink it sometime) So I was like overreacted shouting "AHHHH!!!" while pointing at it, holding my trusty BIG cheesebread! DX! I ran away when I saw my fren was already long gone. TT^TT

I felt bad not talking THESE things that happened today,today coz I thought she might do something more serious then messaging him every week,secretly. And I dun want to Break our friendship just by a Yongsui Guy...=3=~. But later on I think she realize it and tries to turn back to her "OLD" self. I dun know if its real or fake(oh mannn >,<).

When our last class was over, we waited in front of the Ba Gua store(where Wolf office is) (note: sweat and neko-san were with me) Then we started to blabber about Wolf again Then THE REAL one came down XD. I took awhile to look at the sky first(coz I was really shocked) I waved towards him and.....he was Looking my way....had that feeling, its like piercing through my heart!(omg >,<>,<>,<>,<). Then he was stucked in KK for a moment and at that time our Design tutor,Reis pass by and I wanted to say "hi" but something was holding me back and I feel really bad not saying hi to him after that(maybe because of wolf or Reis is just to Blur to not notice his students?) Neko had to tumpang me back again and we both went Ming Tian again to ta pau my food, and we saw Wolf searching high and low on what to eat then He targeted at where I always Ta Pau my food. Tried to avoid him when I was picking my Food(coz I can't assure myself on doin stupid things again if Im close to him)I asked him to Belanja me again then he was like "Huh!". Then I told him to eat healthy things XD.

Ahh that's all for now......^w^

[A]: Yoochun's birthday

2008-06-04T21:35:00.001+08:00

Today, 4th June 2008 is Yoochun's 22nd birthday (if my calculations is correct - 4th June 1986). Nothing much I want to say...cos my head is blank, just wishing him a happy life. Enjoy your day as your age increases TwT in a good way...and take a break once in a while from your heavy work [hmm...I sounded like a mother XP ] As your fan I care for you...[I'm using pronouns here, it's not like yoochun gonna read this crappy post anyway~ but nevermind I'm just doing this for fun haha] hmm what else ~ *think* NAY~ my head is totally blank now ...so i'll pass.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY HAPPY BIRTHDAY~~~ dear YooChun !!! Ow<

Something not related...

=> Today at school I heard someone sang happy birthday song..so LOUD that I could hear it from the library, well that's cos the person who sang it was at the library entrance somewhere, and cos I was doing my maths...got distracted -"idiots! why must sing so loud..."-

Then when Shel came from her history class going to where I was, she said it was Momo who sang it...I was like O___O||| "for REAL..?" - I guess Momo is just being playful at times ahh~

Backstabbing? maybe..

2008-06-03T20:19:00.000+08:00

I've been longing fer a Triangle love in the past and now I have it which is a total Pain in the ass! More worse your Rival is somehow your "Fren" or issit?

I had no idea if she is trying to provoke everyone to think that Wolf is Ugly and why Yeo likes him when she's at my back. Aish I do hope she could stop this nonsense soon. I only remember one word from my mom "If that Thing Belongs to you then It belongs to you" XD Im saying Wolf is an object...! And so I think she is trying to throw me into confusion and so saying that I Like any Bishonens, I "LIKE",yes, True, I LIKE Bishonen as a thing to regain my energy. They are not called as "like" actually. They are called as an "Interest".

And,no, I do not like guys with punky hair....T__T what the hell is she saying. And yea I can see that she is trying to copy all the "cute" stuff that I did to make Wolf laugh(...and I don't act cute.....T__T I hate acting cute so it sucks....it was just coincidence and plus I've that damn blood running through me so I can't escape this Hyper activeness of mine). I can see that she is ACTING...and she sucks at it coz I found it an annoyance, this is the truth even though I tried to endure it by just smilling.

Ahh Hope really hope she could find her "self" back which is I had no idea what issit? She has copied so many people and so. I do hope WOLF is....not Blind, I do hope he find someone FAST!(uhh excluding the one sided me coz I know in the end its gonna be the same as always). If Neko-san wants him then fine....but please lar, Stop getting jealous and do something at my back as if I don't know. Me? I might be alittle jealous sometimes but I have no choice right, I don't wanna make things big. T__T and lastly I still think she ahould Quit acting her Neko and puppy sound, ITS super IRRITATING!

and here's a pic of my college alleyway(I love it coz its...fun to walk there) It maybe murky and dull and somehow seems Dirty but I love to walk this path the most! Especially the cornering part coz some suprising things might pop out(Its like a Long road full of mysterious things that are gonna shoot out soon) XD I love this kind of feelings the most, Excitement!

My Leng Zai cuz came here fer traning since yesterday and it gave my heart a skip when he messaged me O__O! Oh mann I went dinner with him and went around my place for a while coz he said I should come out and look around more. The most heart Stomping part was during the dinner time, >,<, He helped me cut the stupid fist coz he saw that I was struggling to cut it with my CHopsticks! >,<>,<>w< Yeah man he's now my free ticket to Dinner Lunch and Breakfast, hope lar! I wanna take a pic of him,mann!

Ahh better concentrate on my studies first! Saw Wolf today in the morning and I waved happily at him,yes, HAPPily! OMG my palm was like those Yamapi style Open and close! Ah shit. He stopped and came nearer to me but stopped again. Nicholoas and Pei Siu was making fun of me later! >,< but I like the shirt he wore today! XD(and yea Neko-san was yet again jealous even though she didnt show it obviously and tried to revenge on me later on...ahh dumb man)

kk that all for now I do hope Neko would stop following my footsteps coz I can erupt anytime...ahh geez I want a peaceful life....>,<

Its still a Bad Day XD as if

2008-05-31T15:33:00.000+08:00

There's a talk in TOA by SACHI a famous designer...I guess. Im actually blur with the content but in the morning, morning called Neko-san. And she was late so I waited for her at the Main block(slept there) and she arrived we went up the AVH room from the back door and YEA WOLF spoted....>w<.....damn I hate to say this but he talked to many girls(ahh all guys are Flirts) and dunno why throughout the day He Ignored me....but I was caught red handed lookin at him when he came through the front door(our eyes met and I quickly Turn. And Mr Wata was there too XD Took a few pics of him(super BAD QUALITY coz I use burst so the quality is BAD) Also Took a pic when Wolf was Photographin the people around and trying to be Pro Pro XD so Kawaii. Met Jun Mei and other great artists in the Bazaar takin place at the ONE gallery! They were selling great things( And when they ask me to buy them I just stood there and nod my head >,<><) I feel really happpy and at the other point sad coz Wolf ignored me....so even though I met him, nothing happened. Aish I hate this things. Arghh Should remember what Wan and Sweat told me ><>w<>

Anyways I do hoope Wolf ends up with someone pretty( I would be damn happy) T,T they I could give up with no regrets.

[A]: Black & White

2008-05-31T07:32:00.001+08:00

Photos that I took in MD, when I'm bored and when camera is in my hand ^^ I just like it when the photos are monochrome...black and white, cos it's nice to play around with photoshop >w<
Actually I stop taking pictures since new year started but I met a senior who like photography so yea~ somehow my interest revive back [gwahaha~ for no reason T___T ] But when he ask me questions related to photography...I don't know what should I answer cos I don't really know much bout this thing [sorry senior for my rudeness of not answering your questions properly the last time]...I just happen to like photography, without any basic knowledge, so don't expect me to take good pictures....I'm an amateur photographer ^^;
There are some old photos I took last year...I'll post them some other time. This blog is still new and as time goes by, there's gonna be lots of photos...photo spam!!! Till then~

Making a big mistake...

2008-05-30T19:36:00.000+08:00

Coming here is to study but who knows certain things that I promised myself that would never happen again,happened which is more crappier than the Befores! >,< >< >__<>,<......I hate this feelings which is developing Fast! >,<>

This is dumb.....whole lot of assignments to rush and I'm super Super Super depressed and sleeeeepy....+___+! Hope I could be a cat or dog...or any animals not insects. I hate I hate I hate I hate....myself the most! >,<

Ahh anyways while going back home, I meet a Black cat which was really cute and nice XD played with it to Forget about what happened today. Hope I could meet it again tomorow. Hope to really see Wolf tomoro too....hope......(>,<)

Anyways here's some places around my school. 24 hour KK mart(Wolf always buy his ice cream there) and Maybank, next to it is the Main Block of TOA.

And A pic taken when I was super Depressed(the Sky was really in a nice mood while Im not.....its so soothing when I looked at it) and yea one of my skecthes with white pen on someones Sketchbook front cover. That's all. Ciao no mood to say anything nice.

And here's My Tutor from Design Lecure 2 name Reis(I though He was a she at first XD) One of my Junior took it.

[A]: 28th May=Onichan's b'day

2008-05-29T01:07:00.001+08:00

It's just a small celebration for my brother's 19th birthday. Stuffing my stomach with all these food is more than enough. Chocolate cake, pizza, bread, chickens and coke...

Happy birthday to my brother. I wish you to be healthy and blessed. Pray all the best for you.

Love = Complicated

2008-05-28T19:32:00.000+08:00

So the Topic for today is Love O,O So what is LOve this thing.....its's stupid and dumb as what We loners always say. And Love IS dumb , they are like plague, slowly day by day this Plague thingy Spreads and not for long you can't live without it!

Can't see Wolf today, is VERY VERy VERY VERY VERY very fraustated, disappointed and sad...., yea I've been overcomed by this Plague which I had no idea how to get it off of me! ><>w<)

I went back to The One Gallery again and yea the rival follow me everywhere these days now(I think she's afraid that I would see Wolf, Doesn't know she has a good or bad intention) Then another Fren of mine who thinks everything resolves around her(pretty she is but not really nice in the heart) So yet another conclusion Malaysian= You can't trust them= there's no way Best Frens exist( I think this only happens in this college) Because everyone is too Competitive and has Losen their Humanity pluz they had cleary Lost their Mind to this Artistic world they are in now. Everything for them MUST be PERFECT and if No perfection is Achived, they would Complain and Complain and COMPLAIN!(its insanity!) NOthing will GO RIGHT through their Brain if they are in that state.

And yes its true that they think everything resolves JUST around them, thinking that they are the cleverest Shit in the whole wide world and Laugh at those Dumb one(who they THINK they are Dumb) Then Will Erupt or Ignore THe DUmb ones if they get higher then them...., Isnt that Called Jealousy which I don't think its in their Dictionary. They are just to Dumb to understand who's the Dumb one here. Aish Now this Blog is full of Negative Auras and stuffs that are Pretty Offensive.....=3= Hell I care.

Went to the Gallery again and Neko-chan .......(truthfully I dun really know If I myself Hates or Like her) ><>

Ahh to lighten things up in this Blog here's the Little doodle I drew and post it up in My one Gallery....> Mr. Yongsui! XD

means really Ugly,distorted etc etc in cantonese. You know who is it dun cha Ow<(but I really hope he notice it ><)

Getting Started

2008-05-27T18:18:00.000+08:00

And so at last I was the one who did all the creating blog and stuff......Wan wan did you do it or not? If you did create another one then I will have to shut down this one or either. So Im the first one to post,huh? ^w^ Mwahhwahahaha!So first of all Im super busy so I will drop some words and pics and off I go.....to sleep. XD kidding lar! Okay I will post one of my assignments which is Not yet seen by others and I dont think OTHERs would love to see it anyways(coz they think my artworks is either cute or laughable or just Crap) Coz they think everything resolves around them, They think THEIR own things is the BEST(which is yea but you don't have to be that Big shot) anyways its bad to talk about others. But only one did manage to make me stay on this line Im on now, that is Neko-chan even though She's my Love Rival but she took care of me really well when I first entered this college.(TT^TT thanx)Arghh I saw Wolf posing in front of The One Gallery today, Is he trying to advertise himself XD. And I was with Chicken Breast showing the way to Illust dept and so I saw Puppy....XD he's so Kawaii as usual! And yet again Im sad coz I want to see WOlf again COZ he's wearing a SUper COOL shirt today!(so yea Im eying on the shirt not him...XD he perasan himself arr) Anyways they are just yet again my specimens for my Character studies....,Sad la XDOkay okay my few words are up and here's the very "I dunno how to say it" design